Nastita Rani

10 Rules Being Human

2012-01-15T20:42:00.002+01:00

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it’s yours to keep for the entire period.

2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, ‘life’.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The ‘failed’ experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately ‘work’.

4. Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end. There’s no part of life that doesn’t contain its lessons. If you’re alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.

6. ‘There’ is no better a place than ‘here’. When your ‘there’ has become a ‘here’, you will simply obtain another ‘there’ that will again look better than ‘here’.

7. Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie within you. The answers to life’s questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

Last Wishes Before You Die

2012-01-09T23:37:00.002+01:00

1. One thing that comes to my mind is that i would want everybody in my life to truly know how i feel about them. I'm going to write a blog letter to all of them. I will.

2. and i would make sure i'm happy because i don't want to die sad and lonely. And i want you to know when i die i was happy, maybe not all my life, but i really was. And it will be complete if everyone i love stick with me even when i am at my worst condition.

3. I would love to die in someone's arm honestly.

4. To be free of regret.

5. To parachute. To dive. To rock climbing. To mountain hike. Anything i can do with natures that has nothing to do with tall buildings

6. I'd love to see all continents in this world and realize we are just one small living microorganism in this earth

7. Not so corny but at least i would be happier when i died i knew that someone truly loved me.

8. And the last, if i could forgive those who hurt me, because i have not forgive any of them.

You see, i don't really make such a great wishes because i dont even know what's the meaning to be happy in my own terms.

First post in 2012

2012-01-02T22:24:00.005+01:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 !

I got tagged in my friend's blog and since i'm completely bored im going to do it.

1. Tell me about your ex

- This world is a shame for having a piece of trash like him

I hate him and hate is a strong word. Thats why i used it.

2. Drunken story time.. GO

- 2 years ago in my school i was very drunk because some greek guys smuggled alot of alcohols during culture night event. My bladder level was so bad, I knocked on any door and a girl showed up. I asked her if i could use her toilet. I took off my shoes and everything. Got out and couldnt wear them anymore. She helped me. A guy i had crush on texted me, apparently i was screaming happily and i told her how sexy he looked. She then realized i was THAT wasted. She asked me where i lived and she brought me home on foot. All by herself. The next day she said hi to me during brunch time, i didnt recognize who she was. She then told me the whole story.. i was shocked lol. Until now everytime she says hi i'm a bit embarassed >.<

3. A secret you havent told many people

- I usually dont keep a secret about me but if i do im not going to write it here either...

4. A fact about last person you kissed

- im in love with him

5. Favorite tv show

- none , i guess

6. What's your last text message says?

- to be honest i dont give a shit about text messages but i think a happy new year wish or something like this

7. What last made you laugh until you cried?

- this kind of thing didnt happen to me lately

8. List of concerts you've attended

- only one : Backstreet Boys!!!!

9. Your christmas wish

- I never had anything for christmas so i didnt make any wish but i got a giant panda yayy

10. What are you wearing?

- a shirt and an underwear, this is what i wear everyday when i'm home (even if i live in a dorm)

11. Favorite song?

- I dont really have a favorite song because it changes over time...

12. How you met the person you fell hardest for?

- Facebook app lol

13. Favorite memory of this past summer?

- My hun hun came to indonesia!!!

14. Craziest thing you've done

- I swam naked in a hotel in bali. Around midnight time. It was a dare.

15. Jewelry that you're wearing

- now, earings

16. Turn ons

- People who danceeeee

- Uniform/suit and topless boyfriend haha

- Guys fixing broken stuff

17. Last awkward situation you were in

- erh.. dunno

18. Quote you live by

- "The art in life is how keep being strong when life knocks you down" - My doctor

19. A story about you and your best friend?

- We were just classmates-kind-of-friendship friends until we went on a school trip together and the queue in the toilet was so long we decided to pee together lol. It was funny to see each other ViJayJay but we were bestfriends ever since x)

20. Opinion of age difference in relationships?

- i think it's ok as long as it's not your age times two. but anyway older doesnt mean wiser either so.. yeah.

21. A gif to describe your feeling right now

- iwantchocolates.gif

i dont really bother to search one.

22. Lyrics to your favorite song

- "I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it, I dont believe it makes me real."

23. Ever been cheated on?

- many many times

24. Opinion on cheating?

- i think when you cheat you're not sure about your feeling to your partner that theyre being loyal towards you completely. Thats why you cheat. Because you don't feel secure with them. Either that or you're just a sick hopeless bastard.

25. Most recent picture you took?

me and my room mate having dinner yesterday

26. How many followers you have?

- twitter i hv a few and tumblr i have about 6 people. But at least i met all of them not strangers.

27. First ten song to play on your shuffle?

- You Da One - Rihanna

- Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

- How To Love - Lil Wayne

- Goodbye - Avril Lavigne

- Broken - Lifehouse

- Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

- I Write Sins Not Tragedy - Panic at the disco

- Dude I Totally Miss You - Tenacious D

-A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson

- Your Body is Wonderland - John Mayer

28. Best friend on Tumblr

- i only have real best friend i can hang out with and make pretty pictures.

Not someone who put pretty pictures of random shit because they need followers for their pathetic pride.

29. Cutest thing anyone's done for you?

- Well, if they have spare time to talk on skype to me usually it makes me super happy already.

30. Most traumatic experience?

- NY 2010

Today

2011-12-24T00:39:00.002+01:00

i don't know what but something died already

Dear God

2011-12-20T01:52:00.004+01:00

i dont know why you have to test me like this, but i (still) believe you do it because you know i can pass your exam. Hard, hard times for me. Im not asking you to reduce the pain or give me an easier life, but just give me extra strength to go through it. with smile too if possible.

Some spritual experience

2011-12-14T18:23:00.007+01:00

These 2 weeks, i've been seeing the same woman that likes to stare at me every time i come home. But the problem is, she is a woman with no (visible) body who stands in the corner of the stairs in front of my apartment door. At first i thought it was a hallucination. But she showedherself 4 times already - and today i feel this is getting annoying and it makes me paranoid to come home alone. To those who don't believe in the existence of ghost, i'm not writing this so that you will believe they exist. This is my first time i see one in Europe but definitely not the very first time. Sometime i just feel i have connection already.....

She looks european, around middle age. Black hair shoulder lenght. Her eyes are big and since i dont see the body that makes the scary part. She looks at me very hatefully like i've done something wrong and she wants to revenge. i don't know her ok lol. No i have never killed anyone no worries .

JUST At the moment all i want to do is to ask if she wants anything from me, or what did i do that she try to annoy me? But how am i supposed to do it?

This might sound funny but will she understand me if i speak english? Ive never spoken to any spirit before. Don't they also have personality too i heard?

Am i suppose to be angry to scare her away? or just pray so she won't bother me again?

I've been told to act strong because in any way, i am the human and they are not supposed to be in the human world.

Mami... help me.... what should i do...... Call me when you read this but not at 4 in the morning -.-

2011 in conclusion

2011-12-12T21:03:00.001+01:00

In the beginning of the year, i still felt broken. Every time i looked at the scars that had not gone disappear from my arms, my heart hurt and regret mostly about everything.

It was probably the first time i spent new years in a classy hotel in Indonesia. I had a heavy feeling going back to switzerland, i wanted to get out of the school as soon as possible.

But it turned out that i received a letter 2 days before graduation day that i had to do summer session because my credit didnt meet the passing requirement. I felt even more sad. I knew why. And i regret more everything i did particularly during autumn 2010.

My heart was comforted a little by my special guest who attended my graduation. It was half awkward though since he brought his girlfriend along to montreux. I was not allowed to say anything. or cry. All i could do was watching them hugging each other tight... and i must smiled. Too bad i got sick on the same day. After the ceremony, i dropped and i just spent the whole day in my bed alone and my room mate who left to her country already.

I moved to geneva right away. No one offered me help carrying 3 luggages alone. I was completely a stranger in that stupid city. I unpacked my stuff all by myself to my new place that i found very last minute. Sleeping on a new mattress, i closed my eye thinking who i could contact at times like this. Contacted someone. He refused to come.

So, i felt lonely.

I felt very lonely.

I started off my internship quite smoothly in the first couple of months. I got into a fight that somebody spitted on me. I carried pepper spray every now and then since that incident.

My health was declining slowly but sure. One day it got worse i lost my eyesight in one second and i had to bend over in a corner of a busy street in cornavin.

My boss thought i was a liar. She said all the mean things a human could say and i immediately resigned from that place.

I had anemia, a serious one. I was obliged to drink a lot of pills each day and went to hospital every 2 weeks.

My grandfather died. When i knew it i had no one i could hug. I was sitting alone outside the cathedrale crying and there was a homeless guy tapped my shoulder and said that everything would be just fine.

I started to deny my feeling to someone, because he also tried so hard to deny me. My spirit came back when a hotel from USA offered me a position. I prepared all the documents needed for visa.

But one day i got a great fever with a very strong headache. I shivered mostly at night and my whole mouth wasnt feeling ok. I crawled to go to toilet. And i hit my head in the sink because of the headache.

I had HSV type 1. I couldnt eat for 10 days and it affected my stomach acid went up to my chest. Suddenly i had another disease in me, heartburns. I lost breath every now and then. I had to hit my chest so hard so i could breath normal again.

It took 2 months to recover. USA rejected me because of my health condition. . I felt so crushed what i'd been dreaming for at least for 5 years now just flew away in a short time.

But i moved on. I was still a happy girl. My heart broke into pieces when i went to Nice and Monaco. Every time i remember it i just pull my hair and the feeling of being hurt always come back. I just always want to cry.

In the end i finally made it back to Indonesia. The guy that means so much to me was also there, and i was very happy. After everything happened in one year, he had been there for me and i'm just so grateful for having him. I don't know what to do with myself if he is gone.

I had the chance to see hongkong and mainland china. Good to put in countries "ive been to" list, but definitely hongkong was such a disaster place to live. and china was just too fake.

One day before i came back to switzerland, i was crying 24 hours because i had no spirit to come back to a country that hurt me so much lately. I got robbed a week ago; i lost my camera and my macbook. All these chemo sessions that was just a pain in the ass, i feared a lot of things. I tried to limit my friends to asian base, i don't know why. I feel like i want to have fun with asian dinner and not russian vodka. I'm very happy with my classmates because with them i can laugh during the day and even with my leg condition i am still given the chance to dance like nothing is wrong with my knee. I'm so so so happy with all my Christmas market sessions this month, spend few hours or weekend with him, rehearse the dance, eating hotpot together, taking silly photos together, going shopping with my close friends, working on projects and still having fun, they are just little things that make me smile most of the day and forget about all the shit things sum up in one year :)

It's absolutely not a great year, not a year full of happiness. As a matter of fact, i cried a little too much. But like always, every year, i always hope for the better. It doesnt have to start in 2012. But i'm just hoping, that my health will be ok again and to all the people that i really care about, you should know that i love having you in my life and if you have intention to hurt me, please know that i don't deserve it ..

Rani out from this blog.

Seems like my youtube comments are popular..

2011-12-09T14:04:00.001+01:00

My birthday slideshow!

2011-12-02T15:07:00.002+01:00

Watching these videos everyday makes me super happy

2011-11-29T19:20:00.000+01:00

What BBA really taught me

2011-11-28T22:44:00.005+01:00

Technically, i'm not in a hotel school anymore. I'm studying 100% pure business that has nothing to do with hotel industry. To be honest it's not like my brain can't reach the materials - but definitely not designed to study business. And i'm more like an art person i have no interest in doing business with anyone at all. And i believe even with my swiss diploma i'm sure ill get accepted somewhere to work. NOT in vain, but just personal opinion of an indonesian citizen living abroad.

But anyway i'm here already and reading so many case-study and graphs and facts about the economy in the world, i'm more or less a little bit impressed with my own country being always in the top 10 of mostly everything. Not sure how many times i find a sentence saying "indonesia is THE key market" of most international business going to Asia soooooo what I'm saying nggak usah lah menjelekan negara kita sendiri. Beneran deh indo itu nggak parah2 banget kok. Fakta. Memang kita bukan lah negara maju tapi kita adalah negara yang cukup diincar orang berbisnis. Kalo masalah masalah yang lain sih.. well... no comment. Tapi sebelom menyalahkan presiden dan bilang ke semua orang kalo indonesia itu nggak ada apa2nya.. then you are really really really wrong.

Peaceee

127 likes yay :)

2011-11-25T14:32:00.000+01:00

Yearly post before Bday! Some things have changed.

2011-11-21T03:11:00.006+01:00

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday

2. Birthday present

3. My favorite place

5. Favourite Pet

6. Favorite color

7. Favorite piece of clothing

8. Favorite Tv show

9. First name of your significant other/ crush

10. Which town do you live in?

12. Your last job

13. Your dream job

Dancing practice for school event

2011-11-18T19:27:00.005+01:00

Not a pro so i don't need to hear critics :)

Scared scared

2011-11-16T11:05:00.004+01:00

I just admitted to my teacher that I'm really scared of what will happen, regarding everything.

He said i should be scared. And he hopes i will always be scared for the rest of my life. He asked me to remember everything i was scared of but yet still able to go through it. He just pointed his finger at me and then said "so don't be scared". And he left. I think i just wrote the word scared in every sentence. Scared.

I hate rich bitches

2011-11-11T22:27:00.015+01:00

Right.. so.. one of my pretty asian flatmate just had her birthday. She got a Swarovski bracelet from her sort of boyfriend and she complained hard that it didn't look fancy enough for her. Worst thing is that she went to the store and asked for the price. 150chf. She came to me and looked very disappointed. I was speechless. I decided to go out immediately rather than listening to her bullshit.
Look at me. i never get anything for my birthday. Well yeah. Back in 2008 I got 5 kg of chocolate and a panda doll that i love so much now. And i was in so much tears of happiness when i received the box knowing that there are someone who actually have me in their mind.
So looking at this girl, i instantly wanted to slap her face with her stupid Loubutin shoes that makes her like a prostitute.
Seriously. Doesn't it make your opinion even stronger that we are freaking materialistic? Even i'm against stereotypes but all i have to say to all white people out there who pair up with an asian......... there is always financial motive behind it. Maybe not from the girl, but from her family. My advice to you then if you know you don't have money and she's still in love with you then just go fucking marry her.

But anyway. This girl, instead of just being spoiled asian brat, this is the type of behavior of HIM students too. Asian students in HIM. Damn. It's scary to know how rich they can be. Not rare i compare myself to most of my schoolmate that i know. Their dads own all kind of factories in this world. Not rare they invite me to come over to their countries because well.. their houses are too big.
One friend from libya she lives in a fucking palace. She has to use her phone to actually find her mom.
One friend from belgium has 5 floors at his house.
I live in a small house in a crowded neighborhood. with one hyper dog who never gets out the house but yet loves me so much.
Am i happy though? I am very happy actually. To think about it again, i don't require a high maintenance from my parents and guess what I also go to the school who rip off our money too.
I have to admit that i'm not the best person to manage my own money. I have such a wise thinking that money is always good to spend if it means i get to see some new places, or keeping in touch with people i want to be around with, or making someone's day by treating dinner or something - but in reality if i keep doing this ill be financially fucked one day. but hey. Isn't it better to do that rather than getting obsessed with Louis Vuitton bags .. that apparently become a 'must have' for HIM girls?

1000 chf a bag that only has 15chf of production cost?

500 chf for a pair of 15cm heels that will make your feet sore when you walk for 5 mins?

700 chf for a pair of earrings you don't wear everyday REALLY?

WHERE IS THE LOGIC?

So to all bitches in the world who worship fashion too much.

This is specially written for you from the bottom of my heart.

i really hope you fall on the street with your slutty Loubutin heels break your leg and no one will help you. I hope you lose all your Tiffany&co bracelet and see a truck grinding them right in front of your 1 kilo of make up face. and a dog will pee on your pretty Louis Vuitton bag. And you better cry. Cos your mom is not going to buy you those things anymore

The akward moment when you realize you're wrong in an argument

2011-11-09T11:14:00.003+01:00

i had a little argument with my teacher regarding to dream. She said it is impossible to dream about someone you have never met before. The same as if we have never seen a ghost then you will never ever have a dream about ghost.
I didn't agree because i had this kind of dream multiple times couple years ago. Online shit thing, never met face to face. Just over msn. Then she asked me if i saw his face on my dream.

i got silent.

She is right. or well at least the research she was reading was right.
I never see the face in my dreams, ever. How is that possible?

My favorite ELLEN shows!

2011-11-05T21:38:00.006+01:00

true story.. true story ...... lol

November 2011

2011-11-02T22:36:00.002+01:00

Looking back at the past, this time of month last year was the time when i hit the rock bottom until i came back to my ridiculous thought that it's better to feel the pain physically then torturing my mind so i did few times of self mutilation that in the end forced me to go to a psychiatrist. Today the teacher who was supervising EVERYTHING i did last year had me for my defense. She asked if things has got better in a year. She said she was glad to see that i am back in the business. In some ways, yes I am a lot happier than last year. It was the year when people did not really mind to fuck me up mentally, then this year is pretty much a year where there was no single month that i didn't have to go to doctor and hospital. So, it's a little bit different feeling.

But anyway. That woman, the psychiatrist thing, she told me to change my expectation about the world. Man i still remember everything she said and even until now i think it was all total bs. She said by reading my personality, i trust easily. Well i guess after people that i really love lie to me often then i guess it has changed a little bit but i still believe everyone needs to be trusted.

That woman scheduled appointments to change my perspective that nothing in this world is fair, and i should stop seeking for justice, or i will suffer more. I didn't go. I believe what i believe. If you think all people are going to hurt you, and fairness doesn't exist, what kind of fucked up experienced you have been through?

I mean i just dont get it. even until now. I think about it again because tonight i saw the photos of the scars in my wrist and it reminds me of everything. These scars have some stories behind it. No one knows what happened to me. All that everyone who knows i hurt myself basically only says that i am stupid for doing it. and i guess now i know the people who are thinking to keep distant because i am such a drama queen looking for attention. But hey, it took a lot of courage to admit my disorder and wanting to fix it. and yet admit it you still have low opinion about me.

For me i am a sucker for world's class problem. I'm not strong and i'm not a move on type. I still believe everyone can be trusted and i just want to be nice to everyone because i want everyone to be nice to me. But you use me for something else.

My favorite teacher got fired today.

2011-11-02T14:53:00.002+01:00

Its just not a tribute to my teacher,
its just not something i want to write,
its not just a special attention for you sir,
its like the whole potential,
what I am paying to Mr.B,
Thanks for your efforts to teach 5 hours straight a day,
while i play tic tac toe during your class.
You taught me how freedom is going make me happy
or fuck me in the face,
You helped me to see teachers are just like us.
they like to watch movies too instead of grading.
I would like to say one thing at last,
sir you have made my 8 weeks quite chill,
5 hours of listening and you're already happy if we don't say anything,
You're absolutely one of the most disorganized teacher in history,
but thats why i like you.

Going to miss you !

Darlin

2011-11-02T08:46:00.003+01:00

Trying to draw my feelings. Kids drawing. You don't need to figure them out.

2011-10-29T12:56:00.001+02:00

Like parents like children

2011-10-24T00:14:00.002+02:00

My post this time harus ditulis dalam bahasa Indonesia karena gue tidak ingin menyinggung perasaan teman teman yang.. kalau diliat dari segi topik sih... lebih condong yang bule bule itu. Postingan kali berdasarkan pengamatan gue tentang teman sekolah asal thailand, panggil aja Phat. Ini cowok sudah umur 24 sih.. tapi tetep aja umur itu cuma angka, cos tua bukan berarti dewasa.

Gue jarang hang out sama dia. Kita teman sekelas taun lalu, tapi taun ini gue berteman baik sama pacarnya. I dont know how to describe. Orangnya cukup tinggi untuk ukuran orang asia. Kuliatnya coklat coklat gitu - yah .. orang thailand deh. Gemuk enggak. Kurus juga enggak. Cakep... hmm.. not bad sih kalo diliat2. Selera gue masih bule sih jadi susah di compare.

Itu fisiknya. Kalo diliat dari segi personality nya, dari angka 1 - 100, gue kasih dia 99. Haha manusia ga ada yang sempurnya ya bok..! Gue bingung kadang kadang, kenapa ada orang yang baiiiiiiiiiiiiik banget gak ketulungan. Kalo ngomong sopan banget. Orangnya selalu senyum. Selalu nyapa. Perhatian sama temen temen nya juga. Otaknya nggak cemerlang cemerlang amat tapi cukup rajin. And dia nggak selfish,dan nggak pernah marah. Udah pokoknya gue kasih 4 jempol deh bener.

Sebenernya dia bukan satu satu nya temen yang tergolong orang 'super baik' , cos temen gue dari smp sinta juga tipe tipe orang begitu. Yang beda cuma gender aja sih. Ada cowok bisa ramah seperti itu for me thats quite impossible, makanya gue yang cukup punya wow sensation gitu.

Toh, setelah kenal mereka berdua, one thing yang sesuatu banget in common adalah orang tua mereka juga. Mama papa sinta sopan banget. Kalo ngomong ke anaknya juga aluuus. Eh ternyata bokap nyokapnya si Phat juga begitu. Kalo ngomong ada aturan nya. They talk to their children with respect - like we talk to older generations or something like that.

Kasus lain, ada lagi emak emak suka cemberut and ngomel ke anaknya. Hasilnya si anak juga seneng ngomel. Atau si bokap suka teriak ke nyokap. Secara tidak langsung si anak otomatis berpikir its okay to scream at people.

Gue sudah beberapa kali tinggal sama host family its true. Sebelumnya, i lived in this perfect imagination where married couple are happy. Ternyata, bullshit, dari 7 dari 10 parents biasanya juga divorce. Mungkin ada yang pernah dengar gue bilang gue kaga mau married. Sebenernya itu i don't believe in divorce jadi kalo kita nggak pernah terikat, this thing won't torture you like fuck.

Erh.. kayaknya gue harus stop disini... karena blog ini bakal sangat sangat menyinggung perasaan kalo gue tetep nulis dari hati. till next time.

Uhm

2011-10-20T16:02:00.003+02:00

Swiss weather is getting worse everyday. But I'm still taking my route from Montreux - Clarens on foot almost everyday. Things can get crazy when you're walking alone for real. Some are funny. Some just make me pissed. Like for example i caught a friend of mine cheating on his girlfriend - holding hand with another girl.

So my dear friend. It is none of my business at all i know. You can pretend you didn't see me but boys like you should be burned alive.

Also i found out the street in front of kebab shop where i fell down before has a hole that they used to cover it with carpet. Great.

There are plenty of stuff recently happening but i don't feel like writing them.

So be happy if i tell you stuff.

Indonesia Malaysia Singapore Culture night ?

2011-10-11T22:28:00.002+02:00

No matter how hard we deny it, Indo malay singapore have the same root. We have the same people. We speak almost the same language. Everybody's stealing each other culture because they're very similar.. i mean break a leggg. Look at the history and we all will understand why.

This year we indonesians have quite a large group in HIM = 8 . :D such a big improvement from last year.

Malaysia is even bigger, about 20 or so.

Singapore........ Well........... i always think that singapore is not deserved to be called a country because the size is not even bigger than other south east asian capitals and because of this amazingly large size they are one of the richest in Asia.

Second, looking at the name which suppose to be SINGAPURA which totally taken from bahasa indonesia Singa (lion) and Pura (kingdom), and they speak their beautiful singlish out ther. Well. You guys are messed up.

Third one, with the majority of people are being chinese - singaporean and so proud of it, i would suggest that you guys come back to china and lets see if they welcome you well.

My bet would be not really.

Fourth, whats their culture really? Cos this is supposed to be a culture night.

It is no suprise singaporean is being the minority so considering the points i mentioned above, you can join us or.. good luck with your preparation.

But decisions have been made. We 3 are together this year - which make 30 people united wanting to call ourselves South East Asian team. But thank God someone has a brain to think that there are 10 other south east asian countries like thailand or vietnam or phillipines that are completely different than us. And their size can be twice bigger than we 3 combine together already.

Facebook pages has been made. I get notification every single minutes. Indo - malaysia dont get along well, this is our faith to hate each other since 1945. I'm sure this group will create problem one day for real.. looking at what was written there.

Indonesian Culture Day HIM

Closed Group

Albrite Melvern
Guys welcome to Indonesian culture group on Facebook. Please add more people in this group which have any relation with Indonesian team. Thanksss

Zullo MovingFridge Samsuri
shud change it to Nusantara group if we combined with Malaysia

Albrite Melvern
ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!!
To all South East Asian, we will meet in Class room ! Hotel Europe 101 ! on ! Friday ! ! 19.00 !!!...Please come...Ngk PAKE JAM KARETT....Thank y'all....

Andrew Ang
saya anak malaysia~saya anak malaysia~haha!

Greg Tee
HELLO FROM MALAYSIA!!! I'll be adding up the malaysians very soon..when im done with macroecons..haha..CHANGE THE NAME!! its not Indonesia anymore..!!hahaha..see u guys soon..

Jimmy Setiawan
we gonna call ourself as a NUSANTARA (made by discussion by Jimmy Setiawan andZullo MovingFridge Samsuri)

Kevin Wong
y NUSANTARA???

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we'll see.

Yes. I have a huge interest to mysterious art. What's the problem?

2011-10-04T17:15:00.005+02:00

The Scream

The Singing Butler - Jack Vettriano

Gothic Nightmares

Camille Monet on Her Death Bed - Claude Monet

Potrait of Jacqueline - Pablo Picasso

Some random updates

2011-10-02T10:24:00.003+02:00

If you have been following this retarded blog ,you know that i don't blog much during school time.

Cos when you're at school, life is soooooooooo in control. You probably get only 4 hours to do whatever you want out of 24 hours.

But let's see what i can write.

1. Happy birthday to paul :D

2. A month of school, i still don't feel i'm here already. Going to classes merely just because it's compulsory, but other than that, it's holiday everyday :) Several classes were postponed so i guess that's why.

3. But today i feel like i have to do so many things. Even when i listed them out, i only have to prepare some arguments about my debate this wednesday and a little bit of study for my statistic quiz.

MANY things huh.

4. My leg hurt so damn bad yesterday. Thank god i have friends that could drag me home.

everyday i'm suffering. Shake that. :D

5. I was chosen to be HIM candidates for business simulation subject last week. Compared to the other classmates, well yeaa i know my business is on the top list. About a week later got an email from a lecture saying i am in the top 100 around the world (93rd lol) and if i can be in that list until the semester ends, i'm gonna get 2000 USD and a nice shiny certificate from them.

Interested?

of course i am. jeeeeeeeez who doesnt want 2000 bucks.

But then i feel a little bit pressured like this, putting so much energy at least 4 - 5 hours to make business decisions and to be honest and i don't like it :\

6. I'm addicted to shark tank episode :))))

7. and TUMBLRRRR!!

8. I found myself i don't eat chocolate as much before or coffee... but now i cant stop chewing gums.

9. My room mate, well most of the girls in this place are catching cold. I woke up this morning and i can feel it that i have sorethroat so maybe my turn is next.

10. I need to shut down today.

Toodles <3

Do you prefer to be a chicken or a pig?

2011-09-15T17:18:00.002+02:00

Today my lecture asked me during the break if i was ok bcos i was, in his opinion, too quiet.

I was just sleepy lol but i answered "Yes im just confused".

Turned out that my answer led to a 5 minutes lectures about eating breakfast with chicken or pork. He said, "if you're confused, ask yourself if you prefer to be a chicken or a pig".

In the beginning i thought it was funny but then when i thought about it i didnt even know which one i should choose. Then he explained eating chicken doesnt really mean killing the chicken since they produce eggs that we usually eat in the morning. But you kill a pig when you eat the ass of that animal which so called bacon lol.

In essence, Chickens = involved. Pigs = committed.

Which one are you?

First week back in switzerland

2011-09-10T21:56:00.003+02:00

I have to admit it was too hard to leave home. If only some things did not matter i absolutely wouldnt go back to switzerland. First time im feeling scared after several years spending time abroad. I had a bad year and keeps going until now and looks like it isnt going to get any better. I might have a happy ending but until it happens i think i have to struggle a bit. So voila i'm here in montreux trying to live the last 6 months in Europe.

The flight was ok. Nothing special though except there was a big group of italians going home after vacation in the eastern part of indonesia. How did i know? i talk to people okayy. I dont make up stories. Taking the planes with about 4 transits felt like.... taking just some random transportation that takes you somewhere around the corner. But dudee no it was an across continent flight. I guess i'm just soooo used to airplanes now. Anyway switzerland was quite warm although the first 2 days it was rainy all the time but now seems like it keeps getting hotter. Of course, my stupid nerve cannot stand the heat so my headache is most of the time just unbearable. My stomach did not feel very well either for a couple of days and right now my right eye is so red - i don't know why. It's not itchy. It doesnt hurt. It's just been red for days.

On the way to HIM it was quite nerve wrecking... almost the same feeling if not then bigger type of emotion when having math test to me : panick attack! you know when you can feel your blood flow and your heart beats too fast? and your hand gets so cold and your stomach is bloating?
or maybe i'm just just paranoid. I dont know how many times i should write here (you might have heard me saying) 2010 is a nightmare, yet you wont understand what kind of experience i went through that makes me like such a loser now. It was bad. It was pretty damn bad. Right now i'm just hoping if i can deal with problems better than before. No more razors.

First time going to class, i couldnt see any face i recognize. Maybe less than 5. I mean, usually i don't have any problems with socializing but sometimes i get lazy too to be nice and act like i want to know them better :p Asking personal questions like im interested :b

Nyeh. I have about a thousand people on facebook no matter how hard i try to eliminate those i barely talk to so whyyy do i have to care to be good friends with people that will be together with me for half year only. But then if i think about it that's exactly why i should be friendly again because they will be together with me. It isnt so bad afterall. I'm no more disappointed to know that i'm the only indonesian in the class just like how it is since 2008 but now we have quite a fantastic number of fellow indonesians : 4! Such a big improvement :P

A classmate from sweden turned out to be a bahasa indonesia speaker since he has lived in Bali to work. And also another half indo - german. And another one half indo - japanese.

So far, i have no problem with the people. Or.. well.. yes some difficulties with some certain people from.. you know.. half europe half asia :P But i think i'm doing ok with the rest. It's good to see some old faces again actually. The first complained i received when they saw me was of course "Where the f have u been" or "youve got to let someone know if youre in montreux". Uhh so cute :b since when you guys notice i exist lol. But yes im sorry if i keep hiding but i'm just not excited :)

And oh i don't live in Montreux. Where i live isnt so far about 5 - 6 stops if i take bus from school. I tried to walk as much as i can even cos i want to walk while i can but YEAA its not such a good idea for my stupid legs.
The room is, well HIM standard. The students that live in the building are pretty cool too. Both guys and girls. The tenant is a cool guy but i heard he can be a bitch overtime. Just the hygiene im complaining about. I'll get used to it.

Today i walked home and a stranger came to me and grabbed my hand. I dont know what he wanted but that was enough to make me scared. Tried to tell him to back off and leave but he followed me. Luckily i bumped to my friend and he helped me to get out of there. Right now i just dont want to go out alone anymore. i'm scared. Who says switzerland is a safe country. And a small town is good to live too? Tried to find anyone i want to hang out with but seems like no one is available. Makes me so blue now :(

Oh well. i guess ill stay home tonight.

its 9 - 10 - 11 today, #just saying.

When you're gone cover

2011-08-26T09:42:00.002+02:00

Last time i saw them, 2008

2011-08-25T10:26:00.002+02:00

Life is all about perspectives. I have changed mine to this.

2011-07-30T17:15:00.008+02:00

Hi rani dont be sad again

Dry up the tears in your cheeks

Rani you have a brave heart

Bad things are never expected

Bad things that have changed your life direction

Happiness feels simply vanished

Dont be upset for what already happened

You never know better things are waiting for you

Rani, how many people in this world is as trusting as you?

A person with full of hope

And how many of people you trust just ignore you like you don't exist?

Even if you are in sorrow now

Don't give up on life

Suicide is for losers rani

Never do revenge to those who has been mean to you

Pray for those who made you cry

Smile when people throw you away

Be grateful for what you have

Be sure God has made a better plan for you

Even if it has to get hurt sometimes.

Learn to accept life the way it is with an open heart.

Be friends with yourself

Respect your body because they're crying when you hurt them

Let go of everyone who left

Dont look back at the past to heal the wound

Laugh at life when it does not make sense

The world hates everybody that lives in it

So don't be scared because you're not alone

There will be hard time to go through tough times

But life will not always be beautiful everyday

Dream as high as you can

Laugh as loud as you can

Dance when you still have your 2 legs

Go out when you still have enough blood

Socialize when you still speak multiple languages

Rani, When you're stuck with hundreds of pills you need to take everyday

When money is always getting on the way

When someone breaks your trust

When big cities rob your saving and the bad guy spit on you

When a car hit you

When someone stab you

When people yell at you for no reason

When you get threatened by a bunch of immature girls to break your neck

Everything that keeps you thinking not breathing is a better option

Just imagine this,

Imagine when you land in Egypt and feel so amazed by the pyramids

Imagine when you go to New York and see what you see only on google

Imagine you get your first real dream job

Imagine the feeling when you get a raise

Imagine how happy you will be when you get promoted

Imagine decorating your own apartment and pimping your new car

Imagine the butterflies in your stomach is flying when you meet your prince charming

Imagine the day of your wedding, just like in the movies

Imagine the 9 months period of getting pregnant

Imagine how much you will be in tears when you see your first baby

THEREFORE,

My name is Rani and i want to be a new person.

I propose to everyone around me who care about me and actually mean it

I propose to everyone i have a history with to think what kind of crimes i have done that it is enough to make you think i don't deserve your honesty and sincerity towards me.

I propose from now on so that you can be a part of my life until death do us part.

I propose you to stay with me with all my drama stories and to help me being a better person.

That is all that i can propose.

If you think it is hard, you are free to walk out of my life.

And this time i'm not going to beg all of you to stay anymore.

Why the one who broke ur heart is the one who can fix it??

2011-07-27T19:46:00.005+02:00

i really felt like writing this since my night is so ruined and i cannot stop crying. When i do no shit to let it out, i write. So dont tell me i am seeking for attention by writing this online but ask yourself where were you when i needed you the most.

Gosh. i hate people sometimes.

I would assume youre brought here because you are also feeling crushed or you just want to read this bcos you know me. Feel free to give any idea but deal with my post like you deal with the rain outside.

ima true believer of Bob Marley's quote "truth is, everybody is going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for" - Im sure there are millions of people agree on that. It is true, deep, understandable, and relevant to most people. However, my priority quote would be "hurt no one so no one hurt you" which is more like a religious lesson from prophet Muhammad and all religions point of view about life. Apparently life is not that easy so living based on that is pretty much the same like believing what isnt so real. Even if it is then wow someone is strong enough not to reach a point to suicide. So Bob Marley is the Jesus now cos to me his has so much meaning in my life right now. I am at a point where trust means alot to me and i dont know if i should trust anyone while everyone has all the right to be trusted. But how could you do it after getting cheated on, and all the pretending, and lies, and backstabbing? I really have no idea who i can trust anymore. Yet there are some people in my life that i would do anything for. That i would suffer for. Not a lot, i know. i'm sure i am pretty much in contact with about 200 people frequently around me but i only have two bestfriends that i tell everything to. And to me they are fading away also but still i do anything for them without hesitation.

Actually its funny for me when i write things down i know exactly what i want and what to do but as you know, brain and heart are never friends.So for me. i am gonna go suffer over someone i love, not just my crush, who has done alot for me. The ones who make me crazy and whenever i see them i get so hyper. I know i am young so i dont know shit about the L word. It is just right now i almost wish i could turn to someone who would sit with me listen to me with no questions. Someone who dont pretend to be there for me and think i am such a drama queen just because i cry. It is hard to find this someone you know. Ask yourself if a person ever offer you their time so when things go wrong you can always call them but in the end, they become the problem: the one who leave you alone.

Yeah. BS.

Yh well ok i'm not gonna go far now i'm saying i think to trust a person, we both have to be completely open with no judgement or anything painful. All with hurt u in someways or another but Marley is saying just suffer for the important ones that has impact to your life. Some people will let you down and some wont. The question is, is there anyone in my life who wont do it?

The priest told me this story. I got his message.

2011-07-21T12:20:00.006+02:00

Terrance Stanley "Terry" Fox CC OD, (July 28, 1958 – June 28, 1981) was a Canadian humanitarian, athlete, and cancer research activist. In 1980, with one leg having been amputated, he embarked on a cross-Canada run to raise money and awareness for cancer research. Although the spread of his cancer called Osteosarcoma eventually forced him to end his quest after 143 days and 5,373 kilometres (3,339 mi), and ultimately cost him his life, his efforts resulted in a lasting, worldwide legacy. The annual Terry Fox Run, first held in 1981, has grown to involve millions of participants in over 60 countries and is now the world's largest one-day fundraiser for cancer research; over C$500 million has been raised in his name.

"Everybody seems to have given up hope of trying. I haven't. It isn't easy and it isn't supposed to be, but I'm accomplishing something. How many people give up a lot to do something good? "

Osteosarcoma is the eighth most common form of childhood cancer, comprising 2.4% of all malignancies in pediatric patients, and approximately 20% of all primary bone cancers.Osteogenic sarcoma is the sixth leading cancer in children under age 15. Osteogenic sarcoma affects 400 children under age 20 and 500 adults (most between the ages of 15-30) every year in the USA. Approximately 1/3 of the 900 will die each year, or about 300 a year.

The tumor may be localized at the end of the long bone. Most often it affects the upper end of tibia or humerus, or lower end of femur. Osteosarcoma tends to affect regions around the knee in 60% of cases, 15% around the hip, 10% at the shoulder, and 8% in the jaw. The tumor is solid, hard, irregular ("fir-tree," "moth-eaten" or "sun-burst" appearance on X-ray examination) due to the tumor spicules of calcified bone radiating in right angles
The causes of osteosarcoma are not known
Many patients first complain of pain that may be worse at night, and fall frequently during walking

How to tell someone you know they are lying with proof

2011-07-21T10:25:00.006+02:00

Here's the thing about lying: you never know if your lie is doing more harm than good. Ask yourself my questions and tell me why you think i'm the one who is insane. You can think by you are telling a lie just to spare my feeling but in reality, are you sure you are doing the right thing? Dont tell me to stop doing destructive actions if you are the one who fucked me up. You know i have strong evidence to prove you wrong and do you know it is hurtful to be betrayed? Now that i find out about your lie, should i trust you again? Why do you want me to stay when you are hurting my feeling? You're sweet but apparently only in your face. I thought i was done with liars but apparently the past liar has a competitor now.

Wondering what i am talking about and thinking what you've done to me? Then this one post is probably for you.

my chinese trip

2011-07-16T19:15:00.003+02:00

So i went to Hongkong and the mainland. Although i'm not a fan of asian countries (minus japan) the reason why i would give it a try is that a friend of mine from switzerland went to china last year and he said it was quite a nice place. But apparently when everything is booked he meant it was a sarcasm way to tell me how not special the country was. Since i was too late then i thought - well - ok - im gonna do it to prove what he said.

Keep noted i am not talking racism here - just something i have observed from my vacation.

I did not capture that china would be full of skycrappers cos eventhough i know already, but that is definitely something i am not looking for if i go to an asian country like China. Would love to see the real china with people who dont speak a word of english rather than a pretty modernized place where everything is fake and the people dont smile at all.

First i arrived in Hongkong and already did not have a good impression at the immigration. It was, if not the longest custom process in my 7 years of travel life, then the unfriendliest service ever in history. To all people who reside in HK, i am sorry to say this but you guys have the most disgusting weather in this world. You can hate me for this but anyway it makes sense since it is so small, connected island by island, the whole country is so obvious totally man made, alot of buildings, surrounded by sea, and daamn you guys seriously need some trees over there.
And clean the streets sometimes maybe? Since it was all packed with buildings, everywhere i went i always got some water leaking from above. Nope it was not the rain. It was from the air conditioner usually put in front of the balcony - that goes directly to your face and makes the street wet for no reason. So walking outside around hongkong in that kind of street with the sticky weather is probably something that visitors should not do. One thing that enough to assure me to leave as soon as possible. Frankly I dont even know how the people in hongkong can live there. No wonder all my friends in HIM would kill to move to europe lol. Anyhow I am impressed tho about how fast the country is growing especially with a thousand of hills all over the country. If you ask me if it was good in general in terms of the view... Uhm .. i would say yes it was quite interesting if you have never been to any world cities. Having lived in Malaysia for a year, HK just reminded me of Kuala Lumpur. A city. with alot of buildings. all you do is shopping. Not my taste of vacation type.

China mainland was more interesting. Yes you can tell there are some differences between chinese hongkong and chinese china. They spit. ALOT. Once i was walking and there was a girl spitting beside me i was like ARE YOU KIDDING ME. But again i knew about it already. It just wasnt nice to actually experience it. Another problem i did not know why chinese guys like to show off their belly. My mom said theyre just being chinese so ok i can deal with it. Another thing is the of course the most famous toilet that you can find using your nose hehe ;)

But yeah the city was more organized - the weather is still hot but not as nasty as hongkong. The girls are wearing proper dress unlike in HK shorts are so in , everybody looks the same that it got me thinking if there is anyone that has a better taste than hot pants. The cultures exist lol so that's why i like it. The chinese dances and the traditional architecture. Was cooool!! :)) Videos is up next!

changed my hair style yay

2011-07-09T05:58:00.002+02:00

A little bit too much of travelling lately

2011-07-06T17:39:00.007+02:00

Summer session went better than i expected. Accounting class was renamed to Happiness class and it was full day of laughing (except the days close to exam). I could wear whatever i liked and the best thing was i did not spend so much money on train like i planned to since i could illegally stay in the school. I did pass the subject now but i have to say it was nervewrecking during the final exam. BBA in 2 months, yay.

Took a plane to Monaco from Nice airport - just for one day trip like i usually do. Nice was nice. It did not feel like France but it was cool to see the coast cos it was prettaayy. Monaco was quite amazing too everything was made for tourist. The royal wedding preparation made it more special although alot of places were closed and stree

ts were blocked. Transportation was all free and the buildings are

totally worthed to see. I recommend it for everyone who wants to go to europe for sure.

Nice - France Monte Carlo - Monaco

Sunday evening i flew back to indonesia from Geneva - frankfurt - singapore - jakarta - surabaya. Seems like a long route huh but this was definitely the shortest flight i had from europe back to asia. Frankfurt airport was sooooooooooo huge. I had to go to the other terminal on foot. Luckily on the way someone offered me to hop in those car inside the airport if u know what i mean so i only walked for about half way. Didnt feel comfortable at all when you had your first day of monthly guest and had to walk around like that to be honest. German custom was acting stupid by asking me if Jakarta was beside Shanghai. Lufthansa was a big disappointment since they did not provide the screen on seat and the meal sucks big time. Singapore was.. yes singapore nothing ever special. Indonesian custom can kiss my ass for asking me so many questions about my life in switzerland and what i am doing in Indonesia. HELLOO this is my country i can come back here whenever i want duh. Jakarta was bullshit like always. But surabaya is gooood so far <3 Keep getting negative first response about how my skin changed color so i guess i have to do something about it.
Will be in china in few days. I have 1% of interest for anything related to china so i dont know if im gonna like it but we'll see.

Goodbye Geneva!

2011-06-29T09:13:00.002+02:00

Thank you for the last 6 months. Getting into fight with "a certain group of people", talking to strangers, getting stopped in the street by strangers. Car accident. The freaking strong racism feeling between swiss police VS black people. The robbers. The prostitutes. This place's door that locked me inside AND outside multiple times. Thank you Geneva hospital for discovering i have so many things going wrong inside my body. Thank you my crazy lunatic boss (u still can kiss my ass) and everyone in the hotel. and United nations. The karate lesson so i can kick assholes with no balls. The drum. The piano. The public swimmingpool which was a little bit weird to me. Badminton time. The gym and the sauna. The jet d'eau and the lake for being so pretty. The park to get me look more disgusting (read:dark). The cool chilly weather to hot as hell. The church for accepting me when no one wants to talk to me. The festivals. The good restaurants all over the city. Pickwicks and all the good cafe i went. Java. Bypass. and La sip.

And of course, those who made my cry. and those who made me laugh.

Not so sure to come back here but thanks it was cool.

My cattychan

2011-06-25T23:00:00.001+02:00

Fete de La Musique Geneve 2011

2011-06-22T01:46:00.002+02:00

Gado Gado

2011-06-15T00:15:00.006+02:00

to i n d o n e s i a

my silly pic from 2006 :D

thank you for someone there who were kind enough to scatch me

my mood in 15 days

Current favorites

La Sip - Geneva

Trischli - St. Gallen

Me and my obessese cat Catty chan

2011-06-13T23:28:00.000+02:00

Dear God,

Sorry for what i did today. Im just feeling trashy.

my 1st song cover! Amateurs. may cause hearing problem

2011-06-05T00:37:00.004+02:00

My brother and I

2011-06-02T14:34:00.003+02:00

beauty and the beast

My prayer

2011-06-01T23:33:00.003+02:00

Dear God,

i dont know if you read my blog or follow my tumblr, which i think You dont cos you dont have internet there, but i hope you grant my little wish this time.

Tuhan, aku merinding disco sebelum tidur. Sekarang udah jam 23.40, inilah kenapa alasanku agak takut juga. Sudah 3 hari ini aku bangun jam 3 pagi, moaning, screaming, and tears all over my pillow. Mimpiku tiap hari beneran aneh. Kalo cuma aneh, its ok Tuhan. Tapi kalo genre nya horror, i don't really like it to be honest. Mimpi apaan tuh dibunuh lord voldemort pake bantal. Ato ngeliat seseorang bunuh diri, pake acara berdarah darah lg . Pergi ke Brazil eh kok dibantai mafia. Yang parah tuh most people biasanya lupa mimpi mereka apa malam sebelumnya... tapi kalo aku? bisa inget seminggu.

Kalo aku share mimpiku ini ke orang lain, tanggapan mereka pasti ketawa. Wajar sih mereka ketawa karena mimpiku tergolong nggak lazim. Tapi yang punya mimpi kan aku sendiri. Rasanya itu kok seperti kenyataan aja tiap harinya. Aku yang nangis tengah malem, aku sadar 10% hear myself saying uhhhh uhhh uhhh. And this one dream makes my next 24 hours miserable.

Tuhan, aku nggak minta dikasih pacar atau jadi orang kaya. Rani lagi serem aja, takut tidur. Rani tinggal sendirian ya Tuhan. Rani benci tinggal di kota ini. Kalo tinggal di rumah bete, kalo keluar rumah diganggu orang.

Rani cuma minta, tolong kasih mimpi yang ... standard ke bawah lah. At least for the time being. Kalo ini memang efek dari tekanan darah rendah, well what can i do please just hold my hand and hug me cos im really scared to sleep.

Anemia

2011-05-29T10:00:00.005+02:00

So, i am an anemic.

The day i knew i had it, i was not that surprised. It has been i'm sure more than 5 years i keep constantly feeling dizziness every fricking day. And there is always a major one where i cant do anything, where painkiller does not function anymore so i have stay in bed with my pillow pressed over my face (or more in the eye area) and sleep. Does not mean it will be fine after i am awake though.

Keep in mind anemia is a symptom - not a disease. And you shallow people stop thinking anemia is only for skinny people. I eat less than most of you and i dont eat junkfood. What i am having is iron deficiency; my hemoglobin is 108 g per liter of blood and the percentage of iron is 2. So what my doctor basically explained, and what i understood from her, iron is important to produce red blood cell in hemoglobin. Hemoglobin brings oxygen to the lungs and the brain. So since mine is seriously low it explains why my headache is so extreme and i am tired most days. I dont deny the headache part but getting tired ............. well.... i think i'm still quite normal on that one. Except in sports, which is why i wanted to write this actually. It upsets me. I try to do treadmill for an hour but really i cannot run for more than 10 minutes. I want to sweat because it is pissing me off if i do sports and dont sweat much. So imagine in 60 minutes, you run for few minutes. spinning your head out. lower the speed until you feel fine again which take a looong time. Intolerate isnt it?My google search result says anemic person should not exercise or it increase the risk. but sure it is bullshit. But anyway i admit i am not a sporty person, i do sport if i feel like it. I swim 3x a week and i get bored then i stop. I signed up for gym class we'll see how long it goes until i get bored of going there. But one thing that improved alot is i dont feel sore at all after working out even if i dont work out for months :).

Anyway, i found out also since i am lack of oxygen in my brain, i cannot concentrate very well. which is true, most of the time. And believe it or not, this is the cause of me always having abnormal dreams. Try to look it up if youre wondering why. I am scared sometimes at night before bed time just hoping the dream wont be that bad cos it is sooo vivid.

And it gives me moodswings. And summer is coming. I am very sorry to say my body doesnt cooperate well when the sun is shining. It makes my headache even worse. So to everyone who get offended by my certain behavior, i am sorry. The headache still exists every now and then and i can't act like nothing is serious and smile all the time.

What if you died tomorrow?

2011-05-27T23:01:00.004+02:00

So, from 27 of April - 27 of May 2011, i received 4 death news in a month time. Quite a number isnt it.

Thank God and Mark Zuckerberg for facebook that now you can somehow memorialized them. Everytime i see their wall, it is a mixture of a sad and funny feeling combined together. There are some who write like a novel trying to recapitulize the past of what they did together, some who write like a poetry saying stuff about heaven, some who get angry because they're gone too fast. Lots of kind.

Blehh im off topic now. I'm just saying, nothing last forever. Death is a sure thing. But if i died tomorrow i would probably.... die with a smile.....because i have done quite a lot of things i wanted to do. But there are thousands of stuff i have not done yet. And i have not been a good person.

But what to do. If you gotta go, then you gotta go. Life is beautiful. Beautiful is a bitch, usually.

feeling emotional after waking up. 100% bs. But i was very sad yes.

2011-05-26T23:07:00.000+02:00

I noted this on fb last year. And i'm doing it again here.

2011-05-19T23:56:00.002+02:00

1. What are your initials?
- R

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
- Dress

3. Last thing you ate?
- my famous fried rice

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
- somewhere with michelin stars? not that i dont want but it is a bit... impossible for some reasons.

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
- TEEHEE

6. Last person you hugged?
- i cant remember

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
- the question is do i want to :D

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
- hm

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
- maan everything

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
- dinner.. mm.. damn i dont even remember the last time i ate out for dinner

11. Who is your best friend?
- ii dont feel the need to answer this :)

12. What time of the day is it?
- itsss... 00.00 ! haha!

13. Who/What made you angry today?
- Well few online retards in badoo. Not angry. Just dont understand this whole internet dating site thing.

14. Baseball or Football?
- baseball is actually isn't that bad

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
- No. wont probably ever try it

16. Favorite type of Food?
- Just give me rice im happy

17. Favorite holiday:
- any holiday where i dont have to think about school/work.

18. Do you download music:
- WHO DOESNT?

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
- yes?

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
- everything chinese is stupid

21. Would you date the person who posted this?
- No :D

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
- Yes !!!!

23. Do you love anyone?
- have never been in love as a matter of fact

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
- Some look good for some people

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
- no but thrilled to do it! :D

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
- no but would love to try!

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
- 13 years older in fact. Fucking sick man

28. How many pets do you have ?
- one... but i had too many before

29. Have you met a real redneck?
- technically i havent been to USA so no..

30. How is the weather right now?
- it's cloudy but sunny but hey its midnight so i dont know

31. What are you listening to right now?
- Goo Goo dolls! <3

32. What is your current favorite song?
- a bit hooked with evanescence old songs GOING UNDERRRR

33. What was the last movie you watched?
- Fast and Furious 5

34. Do you wear contacts?
- if i feel like it yeah

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
- I went out shopping so i can survive in this bloody city

36. What are you afraid of?
- thunder

37. How many piercings have you had?
- Mommy is going to read this so no answer :D

38. What piercings do you want?
- in my eyebrow :D

39. What's one thing you've learned this year?
- one small mistake but the consequence sucks big time

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks
- Caramel frapucino

41. What Magazines are you reading?
- I dont read

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
- Yes. ONCE! frikin awesome :D

43. Are you missing someone?
- aaaaaa... yeah well several people actually

44. Favorite TV show?
- i dont watch tv much either but lately i like The Ellen Degeneres show

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
- ftw is that

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
- I wish ha

47. What celeb do you look like?
- Doraemon maybe

48. Who would you like to see right now?
- i am so in the mood not to see anyone now

49. Favorite movie of all time?
- MEAN GIRLSS

50. Do you find yourself loved?
- sometimes

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?
- yes

52. Favorite smell?
- when you fry onions. Haha. admit it you like it too

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
- CARAMEL. how come they dont have it in europeeee

54. Ever put a friend in a cop car on JukePix.com?

55. Ever been in a cop car in real life?
- i dont think so..

56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away recently?
-YES :(

57. Our Lady Peace or Nickelback?
- SUM 41

58. What's something that really bugs you?
- bugs. hahaha

59. Do you like Michael Jackson?
- He is Okay

60. Taco Bell or Burger King?
- KFC

61. What's your favorite perfume?
- im not a perfume person but i like something flower-ish and sweet perfume is disgusting

62. Favorite baseball team?
- none :D

63. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
- like that kind of line, yeah

64. Nipple or Nose rings?
- nose it hurts less

65. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
- 7 days. Trust me i screamed at people after couple days of not sleeping

66. Last time you went bowling?
- Last year

67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
- Floor. Its not weird its just not comfortable (YEaaa DUH)

68. Who was your last phone call?
- idk dont remember and dont give a shieet

69. Last time you were at work?
- yesterday

70. What's the closest orange object to you?
- my pillow case

Don't let me fall - LENKA

2011-05-16T00:44:00.001+02:00

Underneath the moon, underneath the stars

Here's a little heart for you

Up above the world, up above it all

Here's a hand to hold on to

But if I should break, if I should fall away

What am I to do?

I need someone to take a little of the weight

Or I'll fall through

You're just the one that I've been waiting for

I'll give you all that I have to give and more

But don't let me fall

Take a little time, walk a little line

Get the balance right

Give a little love, gimme just enough

So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright, I'll be by your side

I won't let you down

But I gotta know no matter how things go

That you will be alright

You're just the one that I've been waiting for

I'll give you all that I have to give and more

But don't let me fall, don't let me fall

Underneath the moon, underneath the stars

Here's a little heart for you

Up above the world, up above it all

Here's a hand to hold on to

You're just the one that I've been waiting for

I'll give you all that I have to give and more

But don't let me fall

You'll be the one that I'll love forever more

I'll be here holding you high above it all

But don't let me fall

SICK

2011-05-08T06:06:00.004+02:00

I am about to describe my sickness this time

fever, thats the most obvious thing if you can touch me. I think even just by looking at me you can tell i have it.

even if i feel hot as hell, i am shaking because i'm cold.

My both legs are so stiffed that i have to scream a bit if i want to move them (which is why im sleepless also)

But since i live alone i have to force myself at least 2x to stand up and get some drink

This time my vision blur.

I cough when i feel like vomitting

My eyes hurt when i move the eyeballs and my headache will get worse.

It is not just the headache that you usually have but it's 5x worse like something grabs your brain and pull it down.

My awesome drug (just antibiotic really) works for me

And looks like playing a game help u to sweat :p

But it does not stay longer than 3 hours.

so here i am now, 6.20 am writing this post cos no one can seem to understand me.

Rant over.

My brother tagged me.

2011-05-04T22:24:00.003+02:00

Right, so my brother tagged me on a facebook note. Since i am extremely bored and not in the mood to talk to anyone, i thought i would give this a try. Surprisingly there are things i dont even know about Ryan and some of his answers are really cracking me up xD

And i was also thinking to put his answer and MY answer just to measure if we are THAT different (but i guess not).

1. What time do you wake up usually?
Ryan :ngga mesti.. bisa pagi poool, bisa siang poool. bisa sore pooooll. hehehe
Rani : before 9 am

2. How do you like your steak done?
Ryan : dibakar pake brandy
Rani : Well done.

3. What movie you saw the last?
Ryan : waaaaa br bln kmrn liat UP 3D
Rani : Knocked up

4. What is your favorite Tv show?
Ryan : nothing
Rani : Gossip girl!!!

5. If you could choose, where would you choose to live?
Ryan : Swiss..... tapi ga isa ngomonge
Rani : USA !!!

6. What is your breakfast?
Ryan : hmmmm dont eat breakfast
Rani : yea about the same

7. What is your favorite food?
Ryan : indonesian food
Rani : yezz me too.

8. What food do you like and hate the most?
Ryan : Like Tahu campur, hate ikan P
Rani : LOVE ikan Pe, HATE tahu campur

9. Your favorite place to eat out?
Ryan : anywhere cheap and filling
Rani : Somewhere a bit fancy (or at least with good ambiance)

10. Favorite clothing?
Ryan : baju casual n jeans
Rani : dressess

11. What car do you drive?
Ryan : berhubung cm pny 1 mobil jd y dipake rame2
Rani : HAHAHAHAH

12. Your favorite daily clothes?
Ryan : kaos kotang hahaha
Rani : mini shorts and oversized top

13. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Ryan : keliling dunia yg penting gratiz wkkwkkkk
Rani : damn brother. You should have A LIST FOR THIS. I would say egypt first.

14. The glass is half empty/ half full?
Ryan : i drink from the bottle
Rani : LOOOOOOOL. (i dont give a damn about this question. ever)

15. Where will you go when you are retired?
Ryan : kembali ke desa
Rani : would love to be in montreux.

16. The day that you like....
Ryan : the day with the girlfriend...
Rani : as much as i hate to admit it, it is true what he said.

17. Where were you born
Ryan : Hospital donk
Rani : Same i guess. But lets be specific : SU RA BA YA !

18. What sport do you like to watch?
Ryan : football n basket...
Rani : football (worldcup-ish only), ice skating and most winter sports.

19. Who will tag you back?
Ryan : hmmmm someone
Rani : no one

20. Whom do you expect to tag you back?
Ryan : everyone who loved me
Rani : dont care

22. Do you like your life ?
Ryan : very very happy
Rani : i consider myself having one hell of experience that most pp li know dont have

23. Morning/night person?
Ryan : tergantung mood
Rani : depends on WHAT OCCASION :p

24. Do you have pets?
Ryan : yes
Rani : If he has it, then i do too. His is mine. mine is mine. Sister rules!!!!!!

25. If you would live just one more day, whom do you want to spend the day with?
Ryan : girlfriend la
Rani : with my mom.

26. What would you like to be when you were little?
Ryan : no hope
Rani : (LOOOOL for my brother!!!!!!!!!!!). I wanted to be a woman who built a house for the homeless in the street.

28. Cat / dog person?
Ryan : Cat
Rani : dog

29. Are you married?
Ryan : not yet
Rani : not soon.

30. Do you wear belts?
Ryan : yup
Rani : no

31. Ever had a car accident?
Ryan : nope tp always almost
Rani : no

32. An animal that really annoys you?
Ryan : angsa yg suka nyosor sembarangan
Rani : (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA) i dont like most insects and lizards.

33. Favorite pizza toppings?
Ryan : mushrooms
Rani : same

34. Your favorite flower?
Ryan : janur kuning wkkk
Rani : (Swt) i like sunflower.

35. Your favorite ice cream?
Ryan : chocolate,mocca, durian with beer, maknyuzzz
Rani : Chocolate mint, Tiramisu with peanuts uahhhh <3

A video that i made for my grandpa who passed away last easter

2011-04-26T22:45:00.001+02:00

Vlog 3 - April

2011-04-20T21:37:00.001+02:00

Check my Tumblr~!

2011-03-21T00:47:00.002+01:00

First off, i admit that i am a very random person. This goes the same to my dreams for about the last couple months. So back in few days ago i decided to note down my pretty much abnormal dreams and share it with you. Thought you might like it .. laugh at it .. or i dont know xD

www.nastitarani.tumblr.com

Vlog 2 - March

2011-03-12T01:28:00.002+01:00

highlights:

Orchestra concert, United nations, Indonesian erleben

Assesing myself : between dreams and goals.

2011-02-21T20:55:00.002+01:00

Yo guys. Just wanted to share my opinions about this topic. You guys remember when you were younger you told your friend you wanted to be a superstar and your friend just looked at you and gave you that kind of look and said "dream on" ......................................?

i did it too. For me dreamers were just lame. But now as i am a litttlleeeeee biiiiit more grown up, i give all my respect to people who have dreams - by that i mean people who actually know what they want to do, what they want to be, and put efforts to make it come true.

This is with an EXCEPTION of those who prioritize to get married and have a family - like way soon. That one for me is a big fat joke that someone can ever throw at.

I mean, i'm ok with it but is it really how far you want to go with your life?

Having a life partner and kids - just like the other 5 out of 6 billions people in the world?

like, seriously?

But anyway i'm not going to write any further opinions about these certain people. You're not wrong. You're just making yourself..........just one of those people. If you know what i mean.

For me, first off, a dream and a goal are two different things. It starts with a dream, and when there is an opportunity, the dream is now a goal. It may sounds similar for you but i personally feel i have to be able to differentiate these two words since IF i ONLY have a dream, i have no time limit that i will procrastinate really bad (... which is sadly something that i am good at).

Life is like a car, you're the driver. Once you know where you want to go, it is easier to reach the destination. Even if there is a traffic jam in the street, turn on your GPS (your brain) and see if there is any other way to make it there.

If you ask me do i have a dream and a goal, sure i do. But i am just one of the luckiest bastard in this world that it doesnt take much time to actually make my dream come true. When it is done, with me,it is also not that hard to make another one because i want to do so many things sometimes i get confused which one i want to do the most.

Am i gonna share my dream with you? i dont think so :) I will always keep it for myself so when things get tough, you wont think i'm just bullshitting.

Everything big starts with a big dream. So dream, belive, and make it happen! Cos life is more fun like that trust me!

Geneva, Work, and my First VLOG!

2011-02-06T19:31:00.002+01:00

Third year : recap

2011-01-27T00:08:00.013+01:00

Hu to the rray i finished the toughest semester ever :)

It has been indeed a very hardcore time but yet, this year i kinda achieved things i didnt imagine i would do before. I was just checking my facebook albums and kinda proud of myself while looking at these pictures.

Let me begin with ... Me .. becoming a class, slash, year representative. Daaamn never in my mind i thought to take this position but meh i am now still it for this semester since i knew in the very beginning it would be shit to be one this time. After meeting and meeting, one very early in the morning - another one after 8hours of classes, taking care of people to make their life easier, going back and forth from one campus to another one, sending hundreds of emails, daaamn daaamn daaamn i have to admit i got pretty tired because of it.

But all this is sooooo worthed, cuz in the end i won the category under The Most Active among 100 people in 3rd year. Yay :)

The next thing i knew i had to do, was to be a country leader for a culture night event. I had zero idea about it that i was kinda despair. I almost gave up - but then i decided to stop being rani for a while who pretty much easy to surrender when things dont go my way.

It wasnt exactly a brilliant presentation from Indonesia but i learned ALOT from this experience so its all good!

And now that we all are through with everything, i'm not exactly feeling happy to know that i won't be able to see most people again. I have absolutely no idea how to cope with this situation (although i am very used to it) but i just CANT accept the fact that people come and go - and nothing last forever. With all bullshit that had happened recently, i managed to fuck it and actually moved on. Thank you guys for the fun time. Thank you!

My dream last night

2011-01-16T12:52:00.005+01:00

When i sleep i always dream and my dreams are always so vivid.

Last night, i dreamed that i went back home and i met my 17 years old sister i've never seen before (i assumed myself i left years ago and never came back).
She was so excited to see me but i was feeling indifferent cos i thought i only had a brother.
She, then, was being super friendly and i reached the point where i got so angry and i told her off that the weirdest thing in the world was having a sister and i barely even knew her so fuck off.

I made her crying.
Gosh what a bitch lol

I then looked at her and thought Jeeez this girl is so pretty. Typical quiet girl and humble and all that, just so different than me. In the end i got along with her although for some reasons, we had to leave home and hide in a castle.
Maybe because i was watching Harry potter before i went to sleep loool.

I woke up. First thing in my mind, oh my god i have a sister. Lol.
But then of course i dont. Im kinda sad it was a dream hahaha she seemed to be a very sweet girl

Back to Switzerland.

2011-01-07T23:05:00.003+01:00

written as January 4th 2011

The change in this trip is kinda extreme. Starting in 30 degree to a country hottest as hell, 38 degree celcius, and to the coldest as.. probably as hell too I dunno, MINUS 6 in Switzerland. I came across to take some photos so that you can feel the difference too.

Good thing was, this time I met quite a few unexpected people such as my ex English teacher at Jakarta airport. Made friends with some part timers workin during the 2 delayed hours at the boarding room. The plane was empty <3 style="mso-spacerun:yes"> watched like half movie, fell asleep, I woke up, I ate breakfast, I watched the other half of the movie, and before it even finished i was told to fasten my seatbelt for landing lol. And because the flight was late I didn’t wait long in dubai which is awesome. Was with an old couple from germany – pretty nice people. Wouldn’t recognize it if they were germans lol

And with this swiss ID, I have special treatment no othaaa. Show them this card.. they’ll be like… ok get in. lol. Don’t need to ask me questions whatsoever. My luggage came out first, and voila now I am in the train to montreux. Smooth. But this is officially the longest journey for me, 29 hours from Surabaya until montreux . just perfect. Luckily Its only 3pm here so I don’t need to sleep again cos I had enough lol.

Barcelona, Indonesia, Christmas, and New year

2011-01-01T18:09:00.004+01:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

My apology for not updating this awesome blog.
Holiday is finally here (its been 2 weeks actually lol). I have one week left of not doing anything - but i am going back to swit swit switzerland on monday, which is tomorrow.
My feeling about it?
it's a little bit complicated. I dont feel as excited as i was like 5 months ago. I am so glad that i am now back in indonesia, that i met people, that i had something to do rather than sitting in a room while snowing outside. It's all good here. I am still suffering from jetlag and it's really bad this time but i also dont know if i should just force my body to follow this other time zone since i will be leaving again very soon.

It's like.. right here.. i dont feel any burden. I feel like maan life is good. But just to think that my life is sort of not in here anymore... that i am leaving everything behind... just to think about what happened and what is going to happen this month - i get nervous. Now i know like in the movies when these people are looking for a gateaway somewhere far, i just know the point.
However i really know that this place, is not exactly my place anymore. If one day i really have to live in surabaya, i will totally have a big hard time to adjust again. It's nice to stay here, its easy and its cheap, and i speak the language, you know just like normal people. BUT normal is not the word i am looking for. Thats not what i want. I wanna be the minority. I want to have something you cant barter for the rest of our lives. I want an adventure but why do i whine about all the craps that could happen. So probably this year, i should fix it on my NY resolution.

Speaking of new year, my new year was ha interesting.
Party in surabaya is just........................................................... no comment :p

So um, since as i told you my sleeping time is completely switched, i think im just gonna write everything. This holiday i didnt really pay attention to dates really. What i know is december 20, 21st, 25th, and january 01. I dont care about the rest. I dont even know what day it is today, honestly.

Barcelona

This is for the 2oth dec part :p Soooo... the weather that period of time was a bit messy and i was really hoping that there wouldnt be any snow otherwise the airport would be shut down. But yeah there was no snow but it was freezing cold but thank god i arrived in barcelona perfectly on time and i loved it there! 10 degree! perfect!
The metro was nice, just the system was confusing.
The city was quite awesome, with gothic style it was veryyy nice. The food, i didnt really get the chance to try the real spanish seafood but i did find a small restaurant, had a pretty authentic dishes with potatoes and red beans and fishes. The best european food for me!
On my way back to swiss, my plane got delayed for almost half an hour but that changed the whole plan cos then it means that i missed the last train from Geneva to Montreux. So in the end i had to sleep at the airport for 5 hours, heading back to montreux, and took a nap for few hours before going to zurich airport leaving to INDONESIA!

Christmas

Christmas for me means no celebration. i dont think i have celebrated a memorable christmas. I could have like.. a european christmas style (u know with families and exchange gift and snow outside and all that) since someone did offer me to join his party ;)
Thanks man but i had to go home this time :)
But yah church. food. and that's it. It's just this time we all went to a mall in surabaya and that mall was pretty cool so i liked it.
I did go to a circus too though lol. Photos are in my facebook.

Sutos

The coolest part of this holiday is, for the first time, my bestfriends were actually the ones who wanted to go out. lol. It is always nice to see these 2 retards :D i always have the feeling that the 3 of us, we are totally totally have different characters but the truth is, we're best friends for 8 years now. And i dont think it is going to an end soon. Even if i dont live here anymore.

It was probably the best day so far in this holiday. Slept over ginting's place, taking photos, taking videos copying the ridiculously phenomenal video on youtube keong racun. I had fun :)

will try to upload some videos soon.

Instead of the things that i am nervous about, for example, my exams, and my graduation, and my internship, and yet that i havent found an accomodation etc, i am actually quite excited about 2011.

I am for sure aiming for Egypt this year and i will be so glad if i can make it.

Also, i am still hoping that Paul, will come to switzerland and ill be soo excited to see his face again!

USA , its a big plan for me this one. But i will try MY BEST to get a placement in the state - which basically means my dream will come true :)))

i'm through with week 15

2010-12-19T00:39:00.005+01:00

if you followed my plurk updates, i had been complaining about this whole week that put me under a big stress - the week when i realized that i am actually more efficient to work under pressure - which i thought i wasn't able to.
I am sick of knowing that others are depending on me, that i need to get myself involved in every single thing. but anyway i am sooooooo done with it so i will stop complaining now and move on.

So what happened? whats poppin? whats next???
so far i really worked my ass off to get things done on time. If not that, i party. haha ;) No. really. There is no way in the world one can see me as a party person.
Do you know how many times i went clubbing in 6 months?
twice.
yea. twice.
Back in few days ago, my class was given the superlatives poll - that's where people write down names under categories that best describe the person. And of course, as a proud responsible class rep, i collected them. read those stupid papers. found my name in mostly in these categories :
1. The most active
2. Facebook addict
3. Party animal

that gave me a heart attack.

Another thing i found quite inappropriate, my so called chinese classmates were talking about me on a FACEBOOK STATUS. Indirectly referring to me by saying "the indonesian girl" written in chinese characters, discussing how harsh i was forcing them to set the deadline.
Nothing bad yeah but these guys must be out of their mind for talking about someone another language - on facebook.
i hate being famous lol

I am going to spain tomorrow and i`m soooo excited.
I do worry about my flight since geneva airport was shut down because of the heavy snow. Really hardcore this time. I've never seen such weather. And the temperature? catastrophe. Better not talking about it but for sure this winter is just the worst.
But yea it's not snowing anymore and apparently it won't snow until the next couple days so i hope everything will be fine.

and on tuesday, i am off to jajaajaajajakartaaaa ;)
Man. another long flight.

My england poem

2010-12-06T22:03:00.003+01:00

I was just checking my ignored friendster account, and found a blog post i wrote when i was in London - as in .... United Kingdom :p
Check it out. I was 16 at that time :)

London today ..

the sun was shining. there was no reason for it to keep hiding all the time, as what it did to me in the last few weeks.

when everybody has a long day to rest

when most people lying on the beach enjoying the sun

when we thank God for giving us enough heat for today.

And the world seems smiling to me.

Opens my day to the brighter one.

Allows me to be relaxed while enjoying my every second in London ; singing, reading, my music, having such a free - pleasant day.

London now ..

I am sitting in my room window, looking at the back of gorgeous garden view.

i am watching a drunk man i know downstair.

ssh..

he’s sleeping, don’t bug !

and he is still sleeping as the sun is now setting down.

i keep on staring at the changing sky, and i am writing my feeling down.

Oh see!

Here goes the moon! Giving its best light to another side of the world.

I see the stars are flashing now.

I see a plane is crossing right over me.

When suddenly it reminds me to a place where i belong.

it is my home land.

Ah it is now getting dark, i shall leave.

I must prepare my days.

Cos tomorrow is not gonna be the same.

Nastita Rani
July 2nd 2006
- H O M E S I C K -

Birthday Statistic

2010-12-05T10:37:00.009+01:00

MY BIRTHDAY STATISTICS
(it's getting better and better every year!)

137 facebook posts

24 direct emails

15 text messages

hundred times of birthday songs

the birthday presents =)

and a lot of snow...!!

Thank you all

ps : as for me, i am treating myself to go to Barcelona in 14 days

TAGGED

2010-11-12T19:58:00.009+01:00

Dear new readers
and even someone who has been stalking,
also to everyone who has not noticed,

I write this thing every single year few weeks before my birthday because i want to know how much things change in about a year. It's friday night - i decided to fuck school-related things just for one effing day. Here goes

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a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the 1st page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation
b) Tag 5 people to do the same once you've finish answering every question

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday

in about (2 + 3 + 1 + 1 + 3 + 2 + 3 + 1 + 2 + 1) days
Scheisse

2. The place you want to travel to

I SWEAR my next trip is gonna be SPAIN!!!

3. My favourite place

4. My Favorite Food

5. Favourite Pet

is panda considered pet?

6. Favorite color

never change

7. Favorite piece of clothing

ini gue bangeeet

8. Favorite Tv show

9. First name of your significant other/ crush

10. Which town do you live in?

Montreux Montreux Montreux :)

11. Your nickname

12. Your last job

13. Your dream job

Too many things going on recently.

2010-11-09T21:37:00.002+01:00

I feel at the messiest point of my 20 years 11 months life.
~ I list everything i have to turn in within 60 days :(

Business plan of a hotel in USA

Marketing plan of El Paraiso Resort in Dominican Republic

"Happiness Delivery" Marketing project

Debate to againts democracy in a country

Culture night

Bourse Evian competition

Website design

Analysis the economical situation of Turkey

Instead of getting rid of one of those works, as a matter of fact, i am now on my bed having headache and feeling nauseous.

omg.
i'm screwed.

Zurich, November 05 2010 :')

2010-11-08T19:18:00.003+01:00

Karena Ku Sanggup

2010-10-30T22:24:00.001+02:00

tak yakin ku kan mampu hapus rasa sakitku
ku selalu perjuangkan cinta kita namun apa salahku
hingga ku tak layak dapatkan kesungguhan mu?

:(

2010-10-25T01:08:00.004+02:00

"I was under emotion, angry,

...... and blogging "

- Mark Zuckerberg

random stuff

2010-10-18T22:20:00.006+02:00

I was ashamed knowing 2 half european - indonesian girls who have never lived in Indonesia could speak really good bahasa and knew more about Indonesian food.
Oh maaaan you all should have seen them how excited they were during the meeting and came up with amazingly a bit non realistic ideas.
As a country leader for the next culture night event, i had to say that the inputs were fantastic.
But seeing the real indonesians could only say either "Terserah deh gw join aja" or "aduh bikin repot" ..... you see, this is totally humiliation for the country.

Katanya sih emang, dimana mana rumput tetangga lebih hijau ya?

The preparation goes pretty good. I just hope we can win again like 2008.

What else....
Oh yeay i already had offers for Internship. Things are different if you have enough experience on your CV and can speak french for 3 minutes. I was also reffered as "the perfect trainee recommended by HIM" and also entitled for having a sweet smile and sparkling eyes.

In my opinion this woman who interviewed me has a mental problem :) lol.

Hey LOOK! I DID NOT MISS THIS!

10/10/10 at 10:10 am

Other than that to whoever i spent my last weekend with, you just made me happy :)

Videos !

2010-10-13T00:14:00.005+02:00

First of all. I would like to apologize for the last post and the video I posted on facebook and here (if you could or got the chance to see).
I did not use the internet since i wrote it and when i opened my email i received quite a few negative comments about it. I am sorry about that.
I know it was immature and i was under emotion.

Now i'm trying to make a new life YAY! My mission is completed so i came back to montreux and the first thing i wanted to do was eating kebab. LOOOL. I felt good. I realized that i was sort of happy for no reason. Met few people in Rosemont ~ who looked kindaaaaaa surprised when looking at me.
One of them said
"Welcome back rani" .
and hug me.

Uhhhhh. Whatever it means but thanks!!!

Anyway. Just few stupid video if you are interested to see!
First video was made few hours ago,, wanted to take a quick shower but the bathroom was occupied.

and this one with elena singin our favorite anthem (while drunk)

PAULINA

2010-10-10T02:17:00.004+02:00

2.17 am....

i'm talking to the best guy on earth : Paul godbold. lol.
He said i should celebrate my recent break up and i am celebrating it with a bottle of desperados and he is drinking his earl grey tea lol.
The one who can make me smile again :) really :)

my heart is broken again

2010-10-05T22:55:00.003+02:00

21 days in Switzerland :)

2010-09-24T17:37:00.002+02:00

So far, in 21 days, i HAVE NOT gone to any party yay !!! But today it is going to an end, im about to go to Luzern to meet thomas and friends - and i honestly - i'm really looking forward to meet these cool swiss people again!

Sooooooo
Schoooooooool......
for some reasons i think it is quite relaxing. Having 5 hours of break in the middle of the day is the worst thing about it but it makes me more productive to finish up all these assignments. Basically there's nothing to do in the evening except than i like my folders are all cleaned and organized. And hanging out :)

I have been chosen as the Class Representative for this 3rd year semester.
Am i extremely contented about it? No.
Do i feel cool? Erhh.. not really.
It IS cool when the school announced it and the next day i knew many congratulated me (which i dont know for what.. for being more busy i guess) and people calling me "Hey class rep" instead of "Hey indo". lol

But this class rep thingy is quite enjoyable. Not only that i got notice (ALOT) but suddenly being able to run the school is just great. I had my first meeting with the President of SAF and knowing what students want from the school and being the immediate so that school will fix it, it is just really cool.

I don't have much time left now, have to get prepared for the pa pa pa partyyyy. Will post videos and loadss of photos next time i blog.

Love u long time <3

rani is back, allright!!!!!!!

2010-09-17T23:49:00.002+02:00

I dont know where to begin!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's just say i am now in Switzerland. yay! and it's been 17 days lol. The trip back to Zurich was actually pretty long when it was supposed to be 2 hours shorter than the flight to Indo.
I met one woman who turned out to be a representative for Indonesia for a Dentistry meeting in El Salvador Brazil.
Another one i met in the plane was a lecture in one of the university in jakarta who was going to Lanchaster to take doctorate degree. Jeez.

So anyway, back in switzerland, the weather was actually quite nice. Sunny but cool.
It was a nice feeling too to go back to Montreux. The orientation went nice and short. My room is actually quite big since i don't have a room mate for this semester (YAY!).
School is....... okay but the feeling to be back at HIM for 3rd year is different than 2nd year.
I don't know why.
Classes are great. Classmates are cool i like them alot. The campus is different so i don't have to stay in a building that looks like a zoo with all blonde bitches and groups of asians stereotypes. Here is more quite and peaceful. Everybody is acting/pretending mature. More smarter people means i have to be smarter than before i think. Cos once again i like the attention of lectures to me.

I will be back with more pictures later but now rani baby has to sleep. Good night xx

my brother's graduation

2010-08-15T07:58:00.003+02:00

my accounts

2010-08-02T13:52:00.003+02:00

Sorry for the long pause. Things are really not happening much when i am in Indonesia.
God please send me back to switzerland asap :)

At least i did meet the 3 most important friends or i intentionally will do anything to meet them really. One is David who has been my friend since 16 years ago (but unfortunately seperated for several years) and there goes Meitha and Siska who are pretty much that i call "besties" :)

But if i can be brutally honest, without any means to offend anyone, i don't consider anyone to be my best friend.. due to the fact that i havent been to actually stay in one country for long term. (except indo of course).
It is always like that; new semester new friends. There is this certain time that you are either close or verryyyy close with some people but not for so long.
I think that's just sad.

Well. Okay. Other than that, and other than i have actually started doing my internship report, I didn't do anything much. I feel like i kinda betray you my dear blog. It feels weird not to write somehow. So I had this idea several days ago, I noticed that i get loads of emails from lots of social networking websites. Facebook is very frequently used but little did you know that i sign up for everything that is free xD

1. Facebook. I use facebook alot. everyday without it is IMPOSSIBLE. Someone told me it is even easier to get an answer real quick from my facebook rather than sending me text messages. I keep my account private. I know 99,9% of the people on my list and realized i have hung out with half of them at least once. I do delete people who don't seem to make any effort to stay in touch, and people who update status every hour ( i REALLY am pissed to see my mini feed is so full of crap). I take the privacy setting to an advanced level so if there is any of you who have me on your list but don't see anything from me, basically it means i don't want to share my life with you.

2. Friendster. If myspace was the trend in the west, it was friendster who was big in the east. I have ridiculously almost 1000 friends, mostly full with people that i have met before but barely know. And of course some random people. I check just when i want to check what my everyday horoscope says lol

3. Tagged. Bebo. Myspace. Hi5. I know NONE of them :D It is just fun to get stupid messages that saying they love me at the first sight.

4. Couchsurfing. This is the place for travellers. Seeking and giving help between travellers who need a place to stay. This is where i get quite a lot of requests to "surf my couch" from people all around the world =) I recommend you to take a look at this website if you like travelling but don't mind to stay in a stranger's sofa!

5. Twitter. Have one because it is famous lol.

6. Plurk. Better than twitter i think. I like updating status. I like writing a micro blog like that. It is just that i don't see the need of getting it so well published in everyone's homepage. So i use plurk and put it in my blog so you read what i am up to only if you wish. Simple.

7. Msn. One amazing tool to talk to people. I tend to add most people i meet online but if i don't like them, i take them off of my list immediately :)

8. Yahoo Messenger. Just for a backup when msn doesn't work. I need the notifications when getting emails too since my primary email is with yahoo mail. Not hotmail. Do note it.

9. Skype. If you are friends with me on skype, congratulations it means i like having you in my life. Most of the time i like talking than typing so if you find it annoying that i keep forcing you to have a video call with me, I'm sorry.
But it is simply because i like talking to you and you are these people i consider i want to have a good relation with.

Back in Indonesia!!

2010-07-20T05:42:00.004+02:00

* I had to close this blog for a technical problem. I have been trying to design a new layout but i failed :(

I've got a massive headache now. Pain in the eye. Pain in the ass. everything hurts.
After probably 100 flights i have taken in my life - i had the worst one yesterday from Bali back to Surabaya.
The pilot was an idiot he didnt know how to drive a plane!!!!

Well anyway.
Lets see what i did in pretty much a month (if i could remember really).

The flight from Zurich - Dubai - Jakarta was okay. Dubai was amazing (even just from the top).
I can't believe after doing so many presentations about Dubai and all the bloody super expensive 5 stars hotel and the famous palm island, i actually got the chance to see them FOR REAL.

It was 46 degree at that moment, the highest temperature ever in my whole life.
Eventhough i arrived at 00.00 something, the airport was still alive. For me it wasn't even an airport, i thought it was more like a mall! People were everywhere (it's just not supported by the fact that they were stuck lol), so many branded shops, local restaurants, fast food chains, coffee shops, swatch stalls......... LOOL
And that airport, was really something. It is really connecting the world. You have no idea when i passeed through the gates and saw all the destinations.. very very cool! and what i liked about it was, that they provided a long chair so that people who are having a long transit (like me.....) can sleep! and free internet too! 4 hours at Dubai airport felt nothing.
Until it was boarding time, then i met 3 indonesian faces that surprisingly turned out that they were from another part of the world too. More facebook friends, woots! :p

Arrived in Jakarta, we 4 were chilling at Tony's Jack to have some drinks. For the first time in my life, i cursed indonesian weather. Hot. Humid. Polluted. Bah ~
Ruxandra came 2 hours later and we were ready for hooooooolidaaaay.

Well ok. Let's say holiday is finished and i'm back home in java. Sinta called me saying a swiss family coming to visit Bali, and i was invited.
So i flew back to Bali again lol.

More pictures are here

Germany

2010-06-16T08:55:00.004+02:00

Butterflies house in Germany :)

Terimakasih ya Kiki udah ditemenin jalan jalan !!!!

Evian - France

2010-06-10T14:59:00.005+02:00

First thing happened in the morning was............. i woke up at 7.50 while my leb (tram) to the city center departed at 8.12 am.
Good thing was that i knew what i wanted to wear lol and my bag was sorta well - prepared since i hung out the day before.

When i was in the tram, a man came to check the ticket.

Ok . Fcuk. I didnt buy the ticket since i was pretty damn late. And for god sake why did he have to check when i was in a hurry!!!!!!!!!!!

I wasn't wasted but i got off of the tram right after i saw him.

But another shit happened since it was Sunday, just like usual all the transports in switzerland are cut down. Which basically means that i had to wait for 1 hour for the next train..... (>.<) It was 8.20 am (lol yea i was only in the tram for a few mins). I promised to meet jozik in 10 mins my boat would leave at 9.15 OHMYGOD i was in a sudden depression lool

I just decided to walk quickly but the thing was, i doubted if i could make it. Since where the village where i live is 12 mins by train. So imagine with my broken indo feet (by that i meant walking real slow), i thought it would take forever.

But thank god it was early in the morning, there were not so many people outside, and like half an hour later i found a bus stop that goes to the metro station. So it's all good!

More pictures on my facebook. I just can't be bothered to upload again.

Anyway, i made a video of... ROMANEL SUR LAUSANNE hahaha i just thought that no matter how wrong things have gone there, i wouldnt forget it :)

J'ai terminé mon stage :')

2010-06-04T23:58:00.004+02:00

i had a really hard moment during the past weeks of my internship. They thought because i was finishing soon, so i didn't need any day off.
I went gaga because of this. That's why i complained alot on plurk :b

But now i'm enjoying life :)
I didn't even know that today was actually friday cos time went too fast. Ala'a came to visit - she brought along an SHMS manager which turned out to be a really really really really crazy cool guy.
That was also my first time i ate a mexican food. It was - okay. At least i've tried it.

I've packed most of my stuff and stored it in France LOOL
(if u ever read this, merci pascal!)
I've cleaned most of the things in this small small studio, i just need to do the rest a bit later.

The weather now in switzerland is getting.. idontknow.. undescribable.
It's sunny - but you still need a jacket.
Weird huh.
and that's why i go out pretty often during the day. I hate sun. But i missed it as well. When i see it's so bright outside - i just can't stay at home. i just wanna go somewhere looking at people with summer clothes and sunglasses and looking red .
Awh - so cute <3

Yesterday i was in the train station. There were like 50 of 10 years old toddlers waiting for the train as well (i hate it if i have to be in the same train with kids).
A boy was walking towards me. Standing just next to me lighting a lighter. And smoking.
and then the other 49 kids were just looking at him (but because i was beside him i felt like they were staring at me too which was a bit uncomfortable!!)

"tu fume? (do u smoke?)" asked a boy

"when i'm stressed" he replied

i was laughing LOOOOOL but he looked at me. So i left :b
i mean
cmon
How can a 10 years old get stressed out really.
Bcos you failed a math test?

Stuff that you might have missed from me and probably don't even care about

2010-05-23T02:34:00.007+02:00

1. I have been ill for almost a week so yea.. Gramatically speaking that should give you the idea that i am not THAT fit up until now.

2. BUT! i went to Montreux Sundance on Friday with Thomas phillip and pattrick. Watch to know how wasted they were :)

3. Ruxandra and i are going to Bali!

and referring to my last post, once again, i think i should be the tourism ambassador :p

4. Leaving Switzerland on June 23................. !!!

5. I'm going to HONGKONG in augussstttt xD

6. Currenty hooked with The All American Rejects...... feel like in high school again (:

7. I want to dye my hair. Like completely change the color. But i know ill never do it.

8. Swiss is STILL cold yes. Guess what, it's almost freaking June

Aku Pulang!!

2010-05-09T00:31:00.007+02:00

Lausanne is having a (really ugly) carnaval.

bah

Apparently i will go home sooner than i thought i would before. When, i still dont know. I have no clue what i can do back home but i'm super excited to see people i haven't seen for years.
Some people from my school are thinking to go down to visit me and i hope that's true!!! cuz if they do come, all my bullshitting skill so far about indonesia are worthed. All that presentations etc etc.

I think my country should pick me as their tourism ambassador xD

i LIKE LIKE LIKE this outfit. It's a dress lohh bukan 2 pieces.
Walaupun harga nggak mahal2 amat dan cukup bermerek (brand yg klo di indonesia semua cewek pada bangga bawa kantong plastiknya tapi kenyataannya di eropa adalah merek kampungan) ( baca : ZARA ) , for some reasons aku ga jadi beli ini baju.

Oh kenapaaaaaaaa ??????

Minta opininya teman!
Klo you think ini baju pantes2 aja nempel di badanku, just let me know yaaa!

2010-05-03T16:06:00.001+02:00

Saturday was crazy.

I swear i will never drink (that much) again.

That picture pretty much explained that i went to a museum on sunday LOL. It was a cool one so i thought i might give it a go

Eric Birthday

2010-04-25T20:17:00.006+02:00

Let me start off by recalling what happened on tuesday, when i checked the reservation book, i was surprised to know that i didn't have to work on Saturday.

"but we are going to Payerne to play Karting" said Jeremy.

Suddenly my mood for the rest of the week was bright. lol

It was My boss birthday - and only the coolest people on earth were invited *mwahhaa*

First, it wasn't really in Payerne. But a city called Yverdon Les Bains - in which i personally think has a BETTER lake than lake geneva.
I like driving....
But i most of the time underestimate car racing like F1. Just like when i was watching it with massimo last week, i thought that i cant believe this world has such an easy competition lol.

But ok, i was wrong.

I'm NOT bad at driving FAST ok. haha But i've never done karting in my whole life - so that was like the first time.
Was only 5 laps but it was long i felt like forever lol. These people whom i was going with were complaining i cheated by cutting the road , when i wasn't suppose to.
There was a black guy needed to stop me in the middle of the race just to tell me that i HAVE TO accelerate when turning left or right.

MWAHAHAHA

isnt it supposed to be.. a race ? hahaha

that was very fun :)

and then Eric brought us all to a tropical theme restaurant in a very small town (i thought we were going home straight). It was more like hawaiian stuff though but that's ok i liked it.

Im so happy that i work in this place really

My high school transformed.

2010-04-15T16:25:00.004+02:00

Facebook is everything. I found these recent photos of my highschool.
Cannot believe it. It's GREEN now!! lol

So i thought it would be great if i can share sama konco2ku arek Santa Maria xxx

this ruined my mood.

2010-04-07T14:46:00.003+02:00

As usual we were having break at mid-day, just throwing out jokes and laughing together. So there was 6 of us, dunno where the boss at, but somehow it is easier to laugh about dirty things without him :b

Well, ok, it was a bit way too funny so everybody was like laughing - and cant stop laughing.

And suddenly they all went silent.....................

My supervisor took a newspaper and sat beside me.

"You've changed"
he said.

Followed by the rest of the people in the room saying OUI.
All i could say was "quoi?" but he didn't asnwer.

i didn't like it. at all.

Gue definitely kangen indo

2010-04-06T20:42:00.008+02:00

Milan was okay. Not as good as it looked on Tv or photos - prefer switzerland muchh mucchh more than italy.

Or.. gw prefer indo ya gara2 gue nemu video ini. From 2 indonesians in Belgium with their 2 belgian friends who came to visit Bandung. Makes me want to go home aja.

Et ouii,, ils parlent francais ;)

Something that makes me happy

2010-03-25T15:49:00.006+01:00

"The customers said you did a fantastic job" - Boss

"If you want to give me a present (R)hani, just finish your study in switzerland and i'll be happy" - Le chef

I just love working in this hotel.

2010-03-18T10:08:00.003+01:00

Girls,

if there is this guy that you really like. Although distance is a problem, but you wake up realizing you are still on skype with him and sleep in front of ur laptop with your skype on. You do whatever you need to do on weekdays so that you can spend your time on the weekends with him.
One day you find yourself don't have time anymore to talk as much as before. You don't even have time for yourself, and he changes. You feel sad. You cry about it. But there is nothing you can do=.
The next time you talk to him, he tells you he has a relationship going on with another girl - and yes trust me, in that short amount of time - so he can't see you often.
But then he invites you to meet again when she is on vacation.

you know what i think, HE IS A DICKHEAD

i'm so glad you invited me really. Now i know who u really are.
I like you sure. but i like revenge more

Lausanne avec alice, etc etc.

2010-03-15T22:38:00.007+01:00

i think.. everything at the hotel is going great even with the absence of Jeremy. I prefer working without himreally lol Eric trusts me more than anyone. I'm happy when i saw him smiling you know. For some reasons i think he is one of those people who frowns alot.

So. On sunday i changed my room layout. On skype. On oovoo. just like usual talking shit with a lot of ppl just to catch up. Today i woke up like really early realizing there was pretty much nothing i could do and i would probably kill myself if i had to stay in this room for the whole day. Soo.. i went out with Aliceeeeee

Was at a hospital called CHUV because her friend was "there". It's kindaaaaaa cool and weird for me because i hang out with the locals now and since i know alice i know her friends too, basically what im saying i know alot of swiss people now.
Time to change language here.
Jadi, ceritanya, temennya ini masuk rumah sakit kan.. Gue kirain dia sakit atau apa. Sewaktu kita berdua sampe di CHUV, gue ketemu sama 2 cewek 1 cowok , kita cipok (swiss style getooo) trus eh udahan keluar dari ruang UGD.

Gue nya yang bingung dong....

Trus kita semua pada balik ke metro (tambah bingung) trus gue tanya alice... itu yang sakit sebenernya siapa sih?
Dia bilang cuma gara gara, you know, depresi...

Aiyaaaaaaahh !!!
TEENAGER banget sih lo ibuuu!

Cannot believe with these young people who cut themselves just because of some lame reasons. I bet they've never really been out of europe - where things can be really ugly.
and since i'm getting know them, gue mulai nge-compare my adolescence dengan adolescence a la barat.
it's not like....... because i have sort of like a royal family - that puts me in private skools in my whole life.. you knoo wearing expensive uniform, and tie since middle school. maids and driver and gardener and shit. Gue ini biasa aja kali. In fact, i chose to leave home when i was 16 because i knew i would be a really fucked up chilidish brat when im 30 if life is treating me like that. and i dont wanna be like my brother really.
Walopun gue at first i wasnt ready to face how different outside world could be dan konsekuensi nya gue bakal terus2an away from parents. Tapi you see?

i fucking don't smoke,

i fucking dont do drugs

i fucking don't cut myself.

i write blog instead!!!

After being kidnapped in australia, and dealing with that phsyciatrist for months, lots and lots surgeries, and being stabbed on the back with a fucking knife on new years eve .. do you really think that you are that depressed?

like seriously......... ?

if my obervation is right, ada 2 tipe remaja klo diliat dari segi penampilan. 1) Girls with REALLY thick make up and totally like a doll but 100% acting like sluts 2) Girls who have piercing everywhere with weird hair colors i dont knooo i cant describe

Tapi gue, always surrounded by people who wear suits.

you know, i used to have 9 piercings too i fucking swear alot, tapi ya tuhan, gue cuma kadang2 ga ngerti aja jalan pikiran orang orang sini. I seriously think karena mereka ini lack of culture and no faith no religion, gimana lo nggak stress kalo lo hidup dalam dunia hedonism seperti begini?

walopun gue ini umurnya masih 20 something, gue seneng lho to know that i am cukup decent untuk urusan hidup.
Life is how you make it. So whats the point of destroying yourself and creating dramas

2010-03-12T15:39:00.003+01:00

I'm so happy (:

i made it

One funny friday night

2010-03-07T02:55:00.006+01:00

I went bowling with 8 other ppl i work with (: it was so funny!
&
i booked a ticket to Portugal and i so cannot wait to go

Hari ini, gw pergi ke salon buat extension.
Udah halfway tiba2 mesinnya rusak dan si mbak yang masangin rambut minta maap and dianya nangis nangis gituuu
*jiaahhhh***
bingung ndiri lohh secaraa gt loh gw kaga marah, ga komplain..., cuma cengar cengir doang....... (--')

Oh ya,
blom secara official diumumkan bahwa : ive got my firstttt firstttt firssttt salary and actually it was more that what was written on the contract :D

Soo with this extra money, i treat myself to buy a new camera and which is why i wrote on my msn 'i love my new toy'.
(So my dear friends, its not a guy. It's not a dildo. No sex toys. You just have dirty minds)

Sejauh ini, i have 17 cuts all on my hands................................................
The last one was today i found blood on a white linen and wondering where all these stains came from.
I checked my fingers.. they were fine. But then more blood was dropping to the linen and it was from my .............. nails. All covered by blood. Also, there MUST be something wrong with my feet. Ya surprise surprise, i guess i will never be a normal human. But anyway, it's hurting me alot these days - I'm not sure what's wrong but i dont want to know either though.

and more bad news, i think i poisoned myself few days ago because of my zero cooking skill.

My life is so random isnt it :D

bah ouii je saisss

2010-03-03T22:51:00.004+01:00

well ok. I think i have to write this in indo.
Sore ini, karena hotel lagi sepi pengunjung (nggak tau kenapa minggu ini sepi banget), gue main main ke kitchen godain chef de cuisine.
Dia ini... hm.. baik sih orangnya. Tapi moody - an. Kalo lagi sibuk whoahh juteknya minta ampun. Kalo lagi chillll...... he fucking teases me ALOT.
Well anyway,
Gue ke kitchen kan.. dianya yang langsung nyanyi gitu "(R)haniii oh (r)haniii. You want to eat?"
wkekeke
langsung sumringahh xD
"have you been to lausanne (R)haniii?"
(d'uh)
Trus Jeremie si supervisor dateng. Dia yang langsung nyolot "elle a un copain a lausanne" meaning dia punya pacar di lausanne

Gw nya yang langsung..... "HUUUH???? " -> dalam hati.
i dont know what kind of expression i gave tapi dia jadi bilang
J : "oh it's finished?"
Gw : (finished your butt i dont hv a bf in lausanne)
C : how old are you (r)hani?
Gw : 20
C : tooo young. you should be free to see the world. Don't be like me i am 28 i have 2 babies.
bla bla
Something something..
Gw ingetnya dia bilang "you must try to drink tequila in mexico and vodka in St. Petersburgh"

I was so fucking speechless.

Gw : Ok. Ill call you when i try that

i left the kitchen

m i supposed to laugh - or be annoyed?

2010-03-01T21:24:00.007+01:00

i was talking to a long lost classmate when i was still in london back in 06.

after 5 min..

8:49pmCristina
I visited china in 2008,
what's the meaning bf?
I was in beijing one week.Wonderfull
8:49pmNastita
really? cool..

i have never been to china...
bf = boyfriend

8:50pmCristina

Oh where are you from?
8:50pmNastita
lol indonesia

Facebook nyokap gw,,

2010-02-25T15:40:00.011+01:00

Basically, my mom wrote that she's giving money on Thursday the 25th so people can check their bank account.
And everyone was like calling her...................mom.

SINCE WHEN I SHARE MY MOM WITH SO MANY PEOPLE?!

Nastita Rani dislikes this!

Annoying Orange

2010-02-21T18:35:00.005+01:00

I've been addicted to a series on YouTube called The Annoying Orange. I don't like all - but these are my favorites (:

PS : it is meant to be an annoying orange so don't complain

Nastita Rani

10 Rules Being Human

Last Wishes Before You Die

First post in 2012

Today

Dear God

Some spritual experience

2011 in conclusion

Seems like my youtube comments are popular..

My birthday slideshow!

Watching these videos everyday makes me super happy

What BBA really taught me

127 likes yay :)

Yearly post before Bday! Some things have changed.

Dancing practice for school event

Scared scared

I hate rich bitches

The akward moment when you realize you're wrong in an argument

My favorite ELLEN shows!

November 2011

My favorite teacher got fired today.

Darlin

Trying to draw my feelings. Kids drawing. You don't need to figure them out.

Like parents like children

Uhm

Indonesia Malaysia Singapore Culture night ?

Albrite MelvernGuys welcome to Indonesian culture group on Facebook. Please add more people in this group which have any relation with Indonesian team. Thanksss

Zullo MovingFridge Samsurishud change it to Nusantara group if we combined with Malaysia

Albrite MelvernANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!!To all South East Asian, we will meet in Class room ! Hotel Europe 101 ! on ! Friday ! ! 19.00 !!!...Please come...Ngk PAKE JAM KARETT....Thank y'all....

Andrew Angsaya anak malaysia~saya anak malaysia~haha!

Greg TeeHELLO FROM MALAYSIA!!! I'll be adding up the malaysians very soon..when im done with macroecons..haha..CHANGE THE NAME!! its not Indonesia anymore..!!hahaha..see u guys soon..

Jimmy Setiawanwe gonna call ourself as a NUSANTARA (made by discussion by Jimmy Setiawan andZullo MovingFridge Samsuri)

Kevin Wongy NUSANTARA???

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Yes. I have a huge interest to mysterious art. What's the problem?

Some random updates

Do you prefer to be a chicken or a pig?

First week back in switzerland

More totally random videos

When you're gone cover

Last time i saw them, 2008

Life is all about perspectives. I have changed mine to this.

Why the one who broke ur heart is the one who can fix it??

The priest told me this story. I got his message.

How to tell someone you know they are lying with proof

my chinese trip

changed my hair style yay

A little bit too much of travelling lately

Goodbye Geneva!

My cattychan

Fete de La Musique Geneve 2011

Gado Gado

my 1st song cover! Amateurs. may cause hearing problem

My brother and I

My prayer

Anemia

What if you died tomorrow?

feeling emotional after waking up. 100% bs. But i was very sad yes.

I noted this on fb last year. And i'm doing it again here.

Don't let me fall - LENKA

SICK

My brother tagged me.

A video that i made for my grandpa who passed away last easter

Vlog 3 - April

Check my Tumblr~!

Vlog 2 - March

Assesing myself : between dreams and goals.

Geneva, Work, and my First VLOG!

Third year : recap

My dream last night

Back to Switzerland.

Barcelona, Indonesia, Christmas, and New year

i'm through with week 15

My england poem

Birthday Statistic

TAGGED

Too many things going on recently.

Zurich, November 05 2010 :')

Karena Ku Sanggup

random stuff

Albrite Melvern
Guys welcome to Indonesian culture group on Facebook. Please add more people in this group which have any relation with Indonesian team. Thanksss

Zullo MovingFridge Samsuri
shud change it to Nusantara group if we combined with Malaysia

Albrite Melvern
ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!!
To all South East Asian, we will meet in Class room ! Hotel Europe 101 ! on ! Friday ! ! 19.00 !!!...Please come...Ngk PAKE JAM KARETT....Thank y'all....

Andrew Ang
saya anak malaysia~saya anak malaysia~haha!

Greg Tee
HELLO FROM MALAYSIA!!! I'll be adding up the malaysians very soon..when im done with macroecons..haha..CHANGE THE NAME!! its not Indonesia anymore..!!hahaha..see u guys soon..

Jimmy Setiawan
we gonna call ourself as a NUSANTARA (made by discussion by Jimmy Setiawan andZullo MovingFridge Samsuri)

Kevin Wong
y NUSANTARA???

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we'll see.