Nastita Rani

The flight was ok. Nothing special though except there was a big group of italians going home after vacation in the eastern part of indonesia. How did i know? i talk to people okayy. I dont make up stories. Taking the planes with about 4 transits felt like.... taking just some random transportation that takes you somewhere around the corner. But dudee no it was an across continent flight. I guess i'm just soooo used to airplanes now. Anyway switzerland was quite warm although the first 2 days it was rainy all the time but now seems like it keeps getting hotter. Of course, my stupid nerve cannot stand the heat so my headache is most of the time just unbearable. My stomach did not feel very well either for a couple of days and right now my right eye is so red - i don't know why. It's not itchy. It doesnt hurt. It's just been red for days.

On the way to HIM it was quite nerve wrecking... almost the same feeling if not then bigger type of emotion when having math test to me : panick attack! you know when you can feel your blood flow and your heart beats too fast? and your hand gets so cold and your stomach is bloating?
or maybe i'm just just paranoid. I dont know how many times i should write here (you might have heard me saying) 2010 is a nightmare, yet you wont understand what kind of experience i went through that makes me like such a loser now. It was bad. It was pretty damn bad. Right now i'm just hoping if i can deal with problems better than before. No more razors.

First time going to class, i couldnt see any face i recognize. Maybe less than 5. I mean, usually i don't have any problems with socializing but sometimes i get lazy too to be nice and act like i want to know them better :p Asking personal questions like im interested :b

Nyeh. I have about a thousand people on facebook no matter how hard i try to eliminate those i barely talk to so whyyy do i have to care to be good friends with people that will be together with me for half year only. But then if i think about it that's exactly why i should be friendly again because they will be together with me. It isnt so bad afterall. I'm no more disappointed to know that i'm the only indonesian in the class just like how it is since 2008 but now we have quite a fantastic number of fellow indonesians : 4! Such a big improvement :P

A classmate from sweden turned out to be a bahasa indonesia speaker since he has lived in Bali to work. And also another half indo - german. And another one half indo - japanese.

So far, i have no problem with the people. Or.. well.. yes some difficulties with some certain people from.. you know.. half europe half asia :P But i think i'm doing ok with the rest. It's good to see some old faces again actually. The first complained i received when they saw me was of course "Where the f have u been" or "youve got to let someone know if youre in montreux". Uhh so cute :b since when you guys notice i exist lol. But yes im sorry if i keep hiding but i'm just not excited :)

And oh i don't live in Montreux. Where i live isnt so far about 5 - 6 stops if i take bus from school. I tried to walk as much as i can even cos i want to walk while i can but YEAA its not such a good idea for my stupid legs.
The room is, well HIM standard. The students that live in the building are pretty cool too. Both guys and girls. The tenant is a cool guy but i heard he can be a bitch overtime. Just the hygiene im complaining about. I'll get used to it.

Today i walked home and a stranger came to me and grabbed my hand. I dont know what he wanted but that was enough to make me scared. Tried to tell him to back off and leave but he followed me. Luckily i bumped to my friend and he helped me to get out of there. Right now i just dont want to go out alone anymore. i'm scared. Who says switzerland is a safe country. And a small town is good to live too? Tried to find anyone i want to hang out with but seems like no one is available. Makes me so blue now :(

Oh well. i guess ill stay home tonight.

its 9 - 10 - 11 today, #just saying.